Well, I did it.
I had the talk with h n talked about disengagement n how it was going 2 happen.
He agreed, but i am afraid there will b some sort of resentment down the road n i still have 2 face qquestions from his mother n my mother, but this is how i need it 2 b.( meaning telling sd8 2 call me something other than mommy). it had 2 b done.. they dont live here (the mothers, n i feel as though my mINlaw might have some resentments about what i chose 2 do concerning her only grd8, but i couldnt handle it any longer n i wasnt getting the support from my h 2 make me want 2 keep sd8 calling me mommy. it feels better 4 me n my bs10 seemed so much happier yesterday, that i am glad i took that step for my bios sake. there is so much crap going on that i am getting anxiety attacks n my h doesnt understand that since he hurt my feelings monday the day after we had a fantastic mother's day (h got mad cuz my older son txted me and the phone rang early in the morning, thought i was up 2 something n came out the bedroom all ticked off)..
aaaarrrggghhhhhhh its just 2 much i dont even understand if im making any since!!!!!!!!!!!!
well 4 one thing, my bios were reclaiming their territory n happiness yesterday n i loved it..i only had 2 make dinner 4 them n they only had 2 clean their dishes n their messes.
it wasnt easy 4 her, n boy did she get pissed cuz the boys were doing their own thing n she tried 2 get in their business..but they didnt worry about her yesterday...well idk!!!!! at least i can say my bios were relieved yesterday n that they havent felt that way for months!!!!!