I just had a typical crazy night with my DH & decided to log on here to get a reality check. (This is extremely personal & graphic, but it's not the kind of thing I can admit happened to someone who actually knows me-I would be mortified if anyone knew what my husband was really like)I have not been on this site for a very long time...looking at my old posts, realizing that things have really not improved at all, I have just grown to care a little less about most of the issues in our houshold. We've been married five years now. One thing that has changed is my husband. He has been drinking more and more over the years. He knows it creates problems when he drinks too much. He acts like he wants me to put my foot down when he has had too much, I'll say to him, "Baby, that's enough." He'll nicely say "o.k., yeah, you're right". Then, I'll leave the room to go to the bathroom, come out & see him sneaking shots of straight vodka. He acts insane when he's drunk. Anyway-I've been through the whole being with an addict experience in the past. He is what would be described as a functioning alcoholic. He has a good job, pays the mortgage & the bills. He is nice to HIS kids & has an o.k. family. I really have no one else, I do love him, so I might as well put up with it. Sometimes he says & does the weirdest things, then when I have what I would describe as a normal reaction, he acts like I'm crazy! Which brings me to my reality check, last night we were in bed, and he started telling me about a video has had watched at work that day (privately in his cube)about a woman who was completely nude, but had her entire body painted so it looked like she had clothes on. He said it proceeded to show her walking down a busy street, then she sat down on a park bench. He said there were parts of her (I'll replace the word he used with "private")that did not get painted, and he was able to see the detail of her "private" and described it in great detail to me. He told me how much it turned him on and he started touching me, trying to have sex with me. I didn't like it. I told him that I couldn't understand how that was supposed to make me want to have sex with him. I asked him how he would feel if I described images I had looked at of a man's "private", and would that turn him on? (He is also a jealous freak) so the answer is no, that would actually piss him off to the extreme if I said/did that. So then this morning, he's all mad at me, says I ruined our evening & it could have been really awesome. Yeah, I'm sure...he was so drunk, I'm sure it would have been really great sex . So, please tell me...am I crazy because his description of another woman's private made me totally turned off? I should mention that he made no attempt to recover from the whole thing, he just rolled over & fell asleep within seconds, snoring extra loud from being so drunk. Is this normal behavior? Am I the weird one?