To all those who have been following my blog for the past few days, just an update....
Wednesday I see a psychiatrist and FH insists on coming with in case he advises me to leave him (FH) and he can punch his lights out! - we heard from someone else that this Dr advised her to leave her husband. I am not too worried because I think it would be extremely unprofessional for him to do that.

I have signed up for a yoga class which starts this Tuesday and I am looking forward to that.

Everyday is an enormous mission for me to get through and FH thinks that he is the problem because he is hardly ever at home. He works 6 days a week at a regular job then teaches Mon to thurs evenings at our music school and then gigs on Sundays. We see him late in the evenings, a few hours on Sat and a few hours on Sunday. I do ALL the parenting, fetching and carrying of the kids as well as feeding etc etc..I feel like a single parent (of my own child AND his) again with no support base. Sure he is there at the end of a cellphone, but it's not the same. He has now decided to give up his Friday night gig in order to spend more time with me. This will mean a drop in our income and I don't know how we can continue to live the way we are (we rent a 3 bedroom house with a big yard and a pool-we also stay in the semi-country because FH can't handle the city life, so we all commute about 100km's a day to do all the activities and jobs!

He is being quite irritating at the moemnt because he is all over me with hugs and kisses and "please don't leave" me sh*t which is driving me crazy! He thinks I am going to leave because I am so unhappy. Meanwhile I am just EXTREMELY depressed and it is chemical!

Anyway...sorry...just had to get that off my chest.

MG