Since i got this new job i don't have time to use the internet anymore!.
Well just a quick update....H hates me again!! lol! after he was notified that i filed for child support he decided to show up and be a father, we started talking again and pretty much decided to give an other chance to our marriage, I was even going to help him pay one of his debts (also BM's debt) so he could move in again with us, and we agreed that he was going to have his other CS reviewed, it is just not fair that we have to pay BM CS when the kids are here with us (usually for 3 months) and when i advised him to not let BM make him feel bad about that (she always plays the "you abandoned your kids" card on him) he got soooooo mad, according to him I was insulting him! and he started defending BM!so to make a long story short he pretty much said "If you don't drop the CS I don't want nothing to do with you" and when i said "heeeellll no" he said that I was worse than BM Jawdropping! that i couldn't do anything to help our marriage blah blah blah, according to him I'm killing this relationship because he has to pay CS for our son, How could i even consider to backdown if he is not even living with us, if his mood keep changing soo drastically?? oohh and let me tell you that since he left us back in august him and BM became BFFs, so I can't help to have a weird feeling about this....so I just decided that I have to break this sick cicle and divorce him, I went to the courthouse 2 days ago but i found out that i can't take my baby out of the state during the process, and i had already bought tickets to go with my family so I'm going to wait until i come back, I can't take his mood swings anymore, and that little friendship that he has with BM smells fishy (it was my understanding that he hated her). Oh well...you ladies have a happy holidays!!!!!