I haven't posted in awhile but I have been reading. Trying to stay caught up on all the craziness that is steptalk.

I feel very irritable this morning and no one I can really talk to about it. I could continue to hold it all in until Thursday when I go see my therapist but I don't think I can wait much longer.

We are having to move. The idiot college kids upstairs smoke and throw lit cigarettes off their balcony. Twice in 3 weeks they have set the mulch in front of our apartment on fire. I told DH we can't stay here and we don't have enough time to buy. I can't do another year of wild swinging parties and constant police visits because of asshole entitled kids. Signing another lease gives me 12 months to pay off the car. We found a house and hopefully find out this week if we get it. I sure hope so.

I think DH is depressed. I am going to send him to the doctor. I can't deal with it. I came home yesterday and the house was a cesspool. OMG they had not done the dishes. There was laundry everywhere. Wrappers, cans, etc. I went ballistic. I know he's depressed because DH is a neat freak. *sigh* I don't need this right now. I yelled at the kids to get off their butts and put away their laundry and take the trash out. SS was acting all pissy and I told him to knock it off. They've been laying around on their butts all day. DH got a little pissy with me and I responded "So sorry I upset his royal highness" DH backed off real quick. I work 7 fu*cking days a week. The least they could do is clean up the damn house. I did notice DS's room was clean. He said he knew I would ask him if his room was clean when I got home. Smart little bugger.

SS is doing better in school probably because the football coach came down on his @ss for not doing his homework.

But I had to put a padlock on the bottom doors of the pantry because SS won't stop eating DS's lunch food. I can't tell you how much that pisses me off. I told DH that he can still participate in the fitness program with SS but don't ask me to do it. He's not even trying to do the nutrition part. In one day he consumed: a giant box of honey nut cheerios, a whole box of capri suns, an entire box of little debbie snack cakes, a pound of lunch meat, a loaf of bread, an entire bag of chips and an entire package of cheese sticks. All before we got home from work on Saturday.

Sunday he was awake when I was up getting ready for work. He asked me if he could have some of my cereal (I hide my stuff) and I said no. You ate all your cereal you'll have to eat oatmeal until I go grocery shopping again next week. He whined that all we have is plain. I told him so put something in it. He whined we don't have any sugar. I wonder why that is? Oh yea because he consumed it all. I don't really use it unless it's holiday time and I make cookies. Since it's not cookie time yet I see no reason to buy something I don't use. Poor baby had to eat plain oatmeal.

**GOOD NEWS** for those of you who are familiar with our situation. I'm happy to report that the Dave Ramsey program works! DH is totally on board and was even surprised at how much money we have to pay bills. Imagine that LOL