After a fearful departure from my almost step parent role (engagement), I am now desperately trying to return. I admit I've enjoyed the freedom from the parenting role these past couple of months, but I so sincerely and deeply love my former partner that I think it's time to just get my head wrapped around this whole thing.

I'm lucky that my partner has a wonderful child. She's very timid and so much different than me but she's generally very well behaved and she does love me. She's 7 years old and lives with us 50% of the time (well, while I was still there and when I get back).

I've just never really had the urge to have children, so this situation just isn't natural. It also doesn't help that her mother is difficult and jealous which means the child is forced to hide her feelings for anyone other than Mom & Dad.

Anyway, I'm trying to be a better partner so we can continue to be together and provide a good example for his daughter. I am hoping that this support group will provide encouragement and support when things are difficult (which they inevitably get to be).

I plan to do some digging around the site to see the company here and hope this will be a wonderful place to express myself and find assistance and support.