Dealing with baby fervor... AND Envy....

DH and I have been together going on 7 years. My SS is 9. We decided last year to have a baby. I got pregnant in October of 2018 and then had a miscarriage 1 day shy of my 2nd trimester last January. Although we have been trying for the last year I have been dealing with Thyroid issues for most of the year and it has added to the wait. WELL, my DH's ex who is 13 years older than I, unemployed, engaged to her baby daddy but not living together, instead living with her mother, and on government-assistance, will soon be having a baby about 2 weeks before what would have been my due date last year had I not miscarried.

Its been an emotional roller coaster trying to acknowledge that she is pregnant and I am still waiting. It has been even more weird and incomprehensible that she is basically due around the same time as I was, just a year later. On June

I truly believe all children are blessings and I hope the best for her and her new baby but its also EXTREMELY hard staying positive for my SS especially since she is an opioid addict who gave birth to my SS who had to spend 2 weeks in the NICU because of opioid withdrawal.

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I used to cry in the shower

I used to cry in the shower with every negative pregnancy test knowing the POS BM got pregnant so easily. I finally got pregnant after medical intervention.

Her ability to have children has absolutely nothing to do with your ability to have children. I had to repeat that to myself alot.

And I'm sorry about your loss.

Yeah, DH had a vasectomy

Yeah, DH had a vasectomy reversal last May, and I can't get pregnant to save my life. The pandemic has slowed things down considerably.

I've broken down, screamed, cried - the whole nine yards. I've been told to not stress about it, but those same folks wonder why it hasn't happened yet. I temp and am stocked up on OPKs and vitamin boosters - nada. August is my "call in medical intervention" date.

It's hard. My SIL is due with Niece #2 in August, and as thrilled as I am for her and my SBro, it has sucked not getting to be pregnant with her. It has sucked not being able to give my parents a grandkid of their own. It has sucked watching my SSs make it through major milestones (OSS just graduated), and here I am, struggling.

So, you have my sympathy. I am so sorry this is a struggle for you.

Op, I recently miscarried my 3rd pregnancy (3rd baby)

end of jan (2 days after we moved into our new home), bleeding started the day we moved house. Its been upsetting being reminded at the shops or just in news, tv etc or family having pregnancies because yours ended in miscarriage. I miscarried at what would have been 8.5 weeks but was measuring 2weeks 6 days behind.

to make things worse, miscarriage happened 2 days before my daughter started kindergarten and barely under a week to hubby flying back overseas (he works essential services) and been stuck there since coronavirus and isn’t going to be able to see me or me visit him overseas for at least a year according to our 2 countries and thats at the earliest.

things feel so overwhelming at times and then i see inlaws being careless about social distancing and risking contracting the virus when quite a few family members work in health services as frontliners who themselves do not practice social distancing (because its family) and it reminds me why did i miscarry.

but remember, its not your fautl. These are normal feelings to have and i still have them on grocery runs seeing a pregnant woman because i should be 26 weeks and 2 days pregnant currently and am no longer pregnant... it kind of feels like the miscarriage is rubbed in your face everytime you hear of a pregnancy or see a pregnant woman.

i truly hope things get easier for you... have you also tried upping your omega-3 intake?? I read that when your hormones are out of whack that this affects your ability to ovulate and so eating omega-3 rich foods or a supplement can help a bit- its no guarantee but anything that can help regulate ovulation is a bonus in my books and remember to “b-r-e-a-t-h-e” at times