I took a week for everyone to cool down. Sd, myself, and ex-FDH. I sat down with ex-FDH and talked. He apologized for how he reacted. I apologized for saying the things I did to Sd. He understands why I reacted the way that I did but after this, me and Sd would never be able to coexsit. So we are offically over. I asked him if Sd has cool down enough for all three of us to sit down and talk. I still need to apologize to her for closure sake.
We did. I told Sd that I regret saying the things that I did. With all that was going on i.e losing my baby and dealing with the depression afterwards, my fuse was short. But that didn't give me an exuse for saying the things that I said and that I was truly sorry. She accepted and apologized for breaking my plate and bring up me losing my baby. ex-FDH is going to reimburse be for the plate. He told me to take as much time as I need to find a place. I WANT to leave ASAP. He moved into the guest bedroom while I'm still residing here. I'm looking for ANYTHING. I just want to move out.
The atmosphere here is so awkward. ex-FDH and Sd leave early in the morning. He drops her off to school, picks her up and they stay out doing their own thing. I do the same. The house is empty for most of the day usually now .I been doing over time at work. I've been packing like a maniac and looking for places to rent. I applied for a couple of fully furnished apartments and just waiting to hear back.
The first green light I get, I'm gone!