they don't...no matter how hard we try...no matter how miserable they have made our lives...how miserable they have made the lives of our children, their pathetic kids and them don't deserve us...they really don't...I wish I would have realized it sooner...

or what you want...or what you need...but about what someone else needs and what someone else wants...and it doesn't matter how hard you try, it's only ok when you do for them...but don't ask for what you need in return, because then there's a problem...or an excuse...and you loose yourself...and it's your fault...and it's you who takes it the wrong way...but when they hurt you and you still try, and you do anything within your power to make it work...then it's ok...just make sure you don't ever expect anything in return.

So, I have been having drama with the 20 SD for the past month, with money her wanting money from DH all time and when he says no, I get blamed and I am the bad person. So now this little girl pulls a stunt. My BS is a year older than SD and they talk and are quite close. SD moved closer to us to go to school (it is about 25 min from us). She used to live about an hour away. DH works where she used to live with her BM).

so BM wanted to show her butt and think she was going to walk all over me (in front of the SS and BS)and get away with it!

It's been a while since I posted, I've been trying to muddle along on my own during the last year with SD15 in residence, but today an incident occured which again crystallised why stepparenting someone elses teen is such a strain: it's so much responsibility practically and emotionally, and so little control.

I don't understand how BMs would choose a man over her kids or how a BM would allow their teen daughters just run off with some guy she doesn't know. Or why she would buy a 12 and 16 yr old ciggs and booze? I find those people to be worthless. How do you get through to a teen that you are only acting in their best interest? Being a SM for 8 yrs has been the hardest job I have ever taken on. It is rewarding but dealing with a BM like mine has been hard. She is a greedy, its all about her, nothing about the kids, meth doing, child molesting b*******.

I kept trying to type in "bio kids" as one word and freaking' auto-correct kept changing it to "bookies." As in "I have no BOOKIES of my own." Which also happens to be true but made very little sense with the rest of the paragraph!

So I just agreed to baby sit for BM after school on her weeks. But I reserve the right to change my mind if she gives me any problems (i told BF to tell her that). I am still on the bubble about it though.

She can text me "I love you " or used to..( mad at me right now because I couldn't do as she wanted..long story).and then post the most venomous lies on a site,I had never heard of.but I am on it now.under an alias..is this wrong to do??????..just want to know how she is presenting herself and us to the world..shocked, a little..

I'm not sure if I ever talked about the fact that my pregnancy was not a good one. My first was high risk the entire pregnancy, and my second was high risk all of the first and most of the second trimester. *Prior* to getting pregnant, I was in very good physical shape. I really love working out (except cardio; I hate cardio). Because of being high risk, I couldn't work out, and then when I wasn't anymore, my OB/GYN told me not to b/c it's not good for the baby for my heart rate to go above 140 (it was 90 resting during my pregnancy).