I have left my husband. Please pray for me for the strength I really need it tonight.

can't talk more.

Yesterday was Mother's Day. First off I would like to say to anyone who reads this ... even if you don't have a good relationship with your mother, it is worth celebrating the impact they have on us. They are somewhat responsible for who we are today - whether a stepmother, guardian or birth mother or even a teacher who plays a mother's role ... Happy Mother's Day to you all.

I don't.

My DH works on Sundays, so it was me that got the kids up and dropped them off to their respective mothers. Not a word from either one of them, and they know what day it is. But, I don't expect much from them. It really was my husband that I am upset with...

I woke up this morning feeling sick knowing that this coming weekend SD13 will be back spreading her poison in my home.

DH told me that when he picked the skids up last visit they were both unfriendly towards him (unusual for SS11 whose parents broke up before he was even born). When he asked them what was wrong they said that he had left them, abandoned them, and how would he feel it it was him.

I am renaming Mothers Day "Others Day" because once again, I have been ignored by my DH. No card. No "Happy Mother's Day" in the morning. No kiss. Nothing.

I suppose this day is for Others, and not me.

this morning apologising for treating me badly on Mothers Day.

This weekend hubby and I went away to a Bed & Breakfast about 3-4 hrs from where we live. In the morning prior to leaving we dropped the skids off at BM's house. Halfway to our destination we stopped at the McDonald's truck stop. When we were just finishing a little boy ran up near us and waved hello. It took us awhile to realize it was my SS6!! I ran to hug him and then realized (oh no 'they're around' - BM and her skiddy bf). And sure enough, there they were. Of all the coincidences in the world - 4 hours from home! There was a million people at the restaurant and we had to run into THEM!!!- #1 on our list of people we DO NOT want to see. So my SD8 comes to talk to us at our table, but didn't want to tell me where they were going. I knew where they were going (to see BM's skiddy bf's mother who lives in the same city as the Inn we were going to). Okay fine. So we leave before them. Said and done.

well, I cleaned on Saturday- H went to work out, then he went shopping- then he came back and went out again, shopping at Sam's club.

So basically, he made sure to be gone through the whole time I was cleaning.

yesterday I cleaned the house all by myself, of course.

H came and told me he had to go somewhere- that it was a secret, and I'd find out tomorrow.
He went out, came back, and I sat in the sun for a few minutes while H vaccuumed(the only thing he did)

I have told you guys about my husbands hearing problem but I honestly don't think it is solely a hearing problem. I have tried to converse with this man and he just plain doesn't acknowledge me when I talk, doesn't listen or pay attention to a thing I say. I am seriously considering a divorce due to it. For example yesterday I was telling him the things that my Grand Daughter, DIL, and I were doing. No sooner than I tell him about my day he totally asks me if I went to the place I just finished telling him about. I hung up on him. I am sick of repeating myself and realizing the whole time I was speaking I was talking to the air. Just a few minutes ago I was telling him that I was going home tonight instead of tomorrow. No sooner than I tell him this he asks me what time am I coming home tomorrow!!!! Again I hung up. I am

WORLD'S MEANEST MOTHER

I had the meanest mother in the whole world. While other kids ate candy for breakfast, I had to have cereal, eggs and toast. When others had coke and candy for lunch, I had to eat a sandwich. As you can guess, my dinner was different too from other children.

to all of your ladies. We are all mother's to our skids, whether or not they live with us. Have a great day!

As I was mentioning in my last blog, I had a visit yesterday (out in my driveway) from an officer I know. I need to give you some background so you know where this is going. This is an officer I have known very well since I have been 14. (He was new to town, just got on force & he & his 1st wife used to come into the place where I worked all the time). When I was 16 & living on my own, if he was on duty when I got off work he would stop by & drive me home so I would not have to walk late at night by myself. Over the course of the years, he was the one that was often on call when my ex was out of control. He would come up and try to calm the situation, always very professional. Anytime I have ever had an issues where I needed advice from an officer...he would be the one I would call because I trusted him.

Yesterday my youngest asked me to take her shopping so she could get me something for Mother's Day. I am wandering around the store, heading to the front & who do I see in the isle coming towards me...but BM. I thought crap...what a way to wreck my day (can't stand the site of her). Anyhow, as we are walking past each other..she lets out a "Phff!" Whatever, I keep walking, could give two shits about what her childish manner is like..she is 38 not 12!

I have 2 bio kids (my third child died at 15mths) and my Mothers Day has been totally under-whelming.

My BS18 is not speaking to me after I refused to let him move back into our home a few months ago. He was in a tough position as a consequence of many bad decisions and wanted me to pay his debts, guarantee his loan and let him move in. He pointed out that if he was to move back in then he wanted the biggest room, and me to stay out of his business and let him come and go as he pleased. I said that he was welcome to come home, but he had to respect our rules; 1. leave things as you find them and 2. treat all other people and their possessions with respect. He told me to get f*cked, threatened suicide and walked out. Since then I have only heard from him once when he needed a copy of his birth certificate. If I txt him to see how he is doing, I get told to get f*cked.