I am so sick over this, and I have no idea why!? I mean, seriously, I could just :sick: right now.

I turned 30 today. Last night I cried myself to sleep thinking of all my failures, not having any bio kids, everything I should have accomplished by now and haven't, etc..
Truth is though, I have a great DH, two good skids, a house, nice car, good job, good benefits, retirement account, the list goes on and on. So, WHY am I a basketcase???? I am totally confused by how I feel right now. Anyone else feel this way when you turned 30?

BOY has it been rough w/all this stuff recently. His parents seem to have forgotten to get SD back to her mom, her mom seems to have forgotten about her...and I'm standing firm on my "I'll deal w/EOW only".

Ok ladies…I need some calming advice.

SS was thrust into my home over a year and a half ago. He had serious issues…stealing, lying, fighting and all kids of other stuff. He was a little over 16. We got him off the ADD and ADHD drugs and he blossomed and matured. He still has issues but NOTHING like when he was younger. I WAS NEVER supposed to be custodial, so let me tell to try and never take for granted the every other weekend schedule.

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I'm worried about ideas my SS9 may be getting. His mom just bought a house and is letting SS's 19 YO brother and his girlfriend live there. They share a bedroom right next to SS9's and I wonder what kinds of noises my kid is going to hear. BM has to be the "cool," "fun" mom so there's no way she'd say no to her older son shacking up with his GF at her house. You know they're going to have sex in that house and I hate it that SS9 is around this. Don't get me wrong--I know I wasn't a virgin when I got married and my kids are going to hook up with girls...

Is it that these women who are married to friends and co-workers worried that they'll get divorced? Is it that hard to see someone move on and let their adult children move out and on? We are on a couples only vacation and we had to stop for FDH to do some work at the university of Wyoming. The couple here we are staying with put us in the sun room...all windows no curtains and everyone in the house can see in the room.

SS left with BM for the next month and a half yesterday. I'm very excited because me and DH very much need the time together to pull each other close again. It's been a rollarcoaster for our first year of marriage. BM and kid are a perfect match for each other. They are both lazy, want people to do things for them only and both spoiled by people that actually like them. I told DH that my biggest worry is that if this doesn't get better between me and skid then he will choose skid over me and then skid and BM will win the battle.

After some disengagement on my part over the last several weeks, meaning SO's total immersion with SD6 on the weekends, her whining, cloying, complaining ways even got on SO's last nerve. Then finally a couple weekends ago SO witnessed her ignoring me when I spoke to her, and although it was a relatively minor incident compared to other instances, it made him realize that I was not making this shit up that she has been disrespectful and has been acting like she out-and-out dislikes me. He thinks it's BM poisoning her against me.

He has been lying on a continual basis over the stupidest things! This has been an ongoing issue. What’s worse is that his lies make NO SENSE what-so-ever!

So we got a new car for the wife about 3 weeks ago. I told her before we got it that if she was going to allow SD21 to drive around in it like she did the last car (over 25,000 miles in just 9 months) then there is no point in getting a brand new car, we should just get a used one. She swore up and down that won't be the case. But of course I should have known better.