I just need to vent something and it has NOTHING to do with stepparenting (ok it might just a weeeeee lil bit). I had a birth control implant put in about a year ago and since have had no libido, none what-so-ever. Not only that but I have also been getting horrible bouts of depression, which can be a combo of the implant, disappointing DH when I'm not 'in the mood', and dealing with SD. I went to the gyno yesterday for my yearly and to ask some questions about the Implanon. She told me that my depression can be made worse by the implant but the lack of libido is not caused by it.

Not only does the 11SS have a cell phone that annoys the SH*! out of me, but now it is 9:30 at night and BM thinks its appropriate to call him on it and chat like they are dating! It is sick, and it is annoying and I have already told the kid 5 times it is BED TIME!!!! He says okay I am just saying good night to mom....okay then say it and get off the phone!!! I am so over this cell phone!

Hello... Today is my very first time on this site and I am so thankful I have found it. I have been an overworked, underappreciated step mom for the last 8 years of my life and I have finally found it within myself to put my foot down with the BM of my SS and I am already feeling better. I am hopeful that I can stay strong and stop letting both my husband and the BM take advantage of my giving nature. My ss has many issues and I have always taken the brunt of what comes our way with school etc. but I am not going to anymore.

Tonight I am so pissed off. Dh has been playing favorite with ss and tonight it came to a head here at our house. Bs asked ss for help with a game, well ss did not help bio with the game he just took it over and refused to give it back. Well dh did not say a dang thing about it, and when I mentioned that ss was refusing to give back game he took up for him and said well he asked for help.. Enough is enough here... I told dh that was the straw that broke the camels back and from now on he can take care of his own damn son and I would take care of mine.

Now that we have 1/2 custody, BM has gone off her rocker, trying to gain any element of control that she possibly can.

She tried to block me from picking up SD from school, we provided a letter stating that I can and the school has accepted it. She is trying to pick up SD from school on our custody week without telling DH about it. He told her the next time, the police are going to come talk to her about it. She said she wouldn't anymore but she still has to test it!

So....we have baby #2 due soon. It was a big decision. I've always wanted two kids, but with financial obligations to his first kid, it was a touch choice. I decided to not let past mistakes dictate our future, so I said okay, we can have a second baby.

So, I'm budgeting for the new year. I WISH we could put away for each of OUR kids as much as SD is getting (doesn't include medical/dental). Sigh, it's depressing.

What's been keeping me up:
1) I still wouldn't trade my life for BM's life EVER

Someone else posted this on here earlier today, on another blog, and I can't even find it anymore to give that person credit. But this is the BEST T-shirt -- I SOOOOO want it!:

http://www.cafepress.com:80/+jr_ringer_tshirt,150780236

BB

So you guys ready for this one? So some of you who have read my post know that my BF pays his BM around $1,400 a month in daycare and CS. Mind you she lives about 15 minutes away and fought with him for 2 yrs over custody. She didnt want him to have any. So my BF just got a new job making twice the money he was before and an old mutual friend of theirs ran into her and she was talking to this guy about how he got fired from his last job (he did not) and that if he even attempted to get a new job at said company her best friend works there and would tell her about it! LOL ...

Hi ya'll!! I've been what ya'll call a "luker" for a yr because til now I was reading from a phone but now I've finally caught up with the rest of the world & gotten online.

So after church we went to pizza hut and SD11 ask DH why he was so sure she won't go live with BM. He says he not sure and that she doesn't need to worry about grown up issues. He ask her why she make it appear to BM that our home is so horrible. SD claim she don't and that BM just assumed it. DH then tells SD that she allows her mom to think that way because she doesn't tell her it's not true. SD says that she has tried to tell BM that SM not a bad person but BM doesn't want to hear it because she doesn't like SM. SD then claims she heard me yelling at BM and cursing on the phone.