Hi,
I've posted before. A little background:
I actually have a wonderful relationship with my step kid's mom. My husband is alright with this, we don't hang out with each other, but whenever either one of us needs a favor (babysitting things like that) we are able to help each other out.
I enjoy this so much since it helps with parenting. My oldest stepson (12)was manipulating both parties. Luckily, all four of us (she has since had a child with another man, he's also involved in parenting) were able to sit down and finally unwind all the "miscommunications".
Well, the reason I am posting is to see if anyone just feels burned out from the daily grind of being a stepmom. We have the kids 4 days out of the week, about once or twice a month, about 6 days. Their mom has renal failure so whenever she needs a doctor to see her, I try to help out. Out of the those days, my husband works, so I am the primary parent figure and caregiver. I have no children of my own. I want to finish my schooling first. So I am balancing school, military drills, stepkids, and my husband. I feel like I've lost myself a bit. My husband always offers to take over, but I am so used to be in charge of things at home, I'm just afraid of absolute chaos to ensue.
It's been almost a year since I've hung out with my girlfriends or friends in general. So I've lost touch. I am 24 years old, but I feel 40. I don't know how to unwind anymore. The most excitement I see is military weekends. I have often joked that deployment would be a vacation for me.
I was just wondering if there was anyone out there who ever felt burned out this young. I also was wondering if there were little things that might help to ease this or anyway to regain a personal identity.