Not Invited to Destination Wedding - Only Her Parents!!
Hi, I'm new here. I'm not married, but have been in a committed relationship for 6 years. I have 5 children, 34, 22, 20, 18, 15. Tragically, I lost my 15 year old this past January. Although I received condolences, flowers and a call from his mother and sister, I heard nothing from his daughters. My partner has 2 adult daughters ages 26 and 30. The 30yo is planning to get married in Spain, this September. She told her father, I am not invited. She is booking an Airbnb for her and her fiance, her sister and niece and mother and father. I told him that is unacceptable. You can't go on a trip with your ex wife to play happy family under the same roof for 4 days and think you're gonna come back to me! He says it's her wedding and she can decide who comes and who doesn't.
This has been 6 years of me being excluded from events in his daughter's lives - baby shower, baby's first birthday party, nursing school graduation 2 days before Christmas - which included a family outing with mom again. Their mother is at all of the events I'm excluded from. Yet my partner has been a part of my family's life since the end of our first year and has attended birthdays, graduations, funerals, my son's wedding, holidays, vacations.
On his end, he didn't tell his family I even existed, until a year and a half after his separation. When he told his sister, she told him not to tell his daughters and he didn't, because he didn't want to anyway. I told him repeatedly that he is lying to them by keeping me a secret and making me feel bad, why should I be hidden so they won't feel some kind of way about him moving on with someone else? His daughters were adults when we got together, my kids were still minors and they accepted him, despite a whole bunch of drama he brought into my life.
When he finally told his daughters he was seeing someone, it was over 2 years after leaving his wife. They were upset, they said they wanted nothing to do with me, smh. I think I met them about 2.5 years after he left the home. Since then, I've been at a few family events like father's day or his parents' birthday and his youngest daugther was there with her child. His grand daughter really likes me so sticks with me the whole time. Over time, his youngest daughter now 26 has come to accept me. The older one who is turning 30 on Mother's day, is the one getting married, who excluded me from her graduation and pre-Christmas dinner with mommy and daddy. Now she wants to play happy family with mommy and daddy under one roof in Spain.
I told him it is wrong for him to allow her to continue to be mean and disrespectful of me and he needs to let her know that me not going isn't an option. But I honestly don't think he will. He doesn't have the guts to stand up to his ex and daughters. Whatever they want him to do, he will do, even if it hurts me. Once, while we were on a vacation, his ex called him to help with her taxes and he spoke with her at some point behind my back. I'm like, "how are you answering her calls while we're on vacation, when that's the only reason why she's calling? You just let her know she can call anytime and you will answer!"
I get that it's her wedding, but she's an adult and should understand you don't separate couples for events like weddings, especially if you have to take a plane to get there and will be there several days! She should also understand that it is so rude, mean and disrepectful. As a woman about to get married, how would she feel if someone in her fiance's family was having a wedding and invited him but said he can't bring her? She would feel that what they are doing is wrong naturally, everyone does because it is!
He has been welcomed and treated with respect by everyone in my family and when they see me they automatically expect to see him. But it hasn't been the same on the filp side. First I was a secret, then didn't meet his parents until almost 2 years later, and the daugthers about 2.5-3 years later, but if its a life event that involved his daughters and ex, I'm excluded.
I'm grieving deeply and his daughter knows this, his ex wife knows this, his whole family does. Yet, this heffer can still be so mean? They are mean people in general. Anyway, I told him you got 4 months to talk some sense into her, but if you get on that plane without me, it is a one way flight out of my life.
Thoughts, similar experiences, advice?
Tee
I am so sorry for your loss
Huge condolences and my heart goes out to you. To lose a child is unthinkable, and to have your loss and feelings minimalized or even dismissed, is indescribable.
I have had a similar, not the same, experience (amongst so many nasty other experiences)
My mum who was 82 at the time, fell and fractured her neck in December 2023, and spent the next 5 months in hospital, also suffering from a twisted double hernia. We nearly lost her twice.
At this point my dad 87, collapsed with shock and grief, they had been together for 65 years. He held on until mum got home and he passed away a week or so later.
My younger stepbitch 28, (older one is lovely) who had concocted an estrangement in the most manipulative and cruel way the previous October didn't contact me, her dad or my parents. Even though she had known and been closer to them than her own grandparents at this point for 18yrs.
She and her sister had lived with us until they flew the nest and we had been very close, but BM, who is a full blown narcissist and had gone no contact with her (BM's choice) from the age of 11, started contact with her again after 7 years.
Clearly a long awaited plan.
Fast forward 18 months or so and after huge heartbreak and loads of soul searching , I started to feel a little more normal, but more importantly, I started thinking clearly.
Even though BM was involved, ysd is an adult and fully responsible for her actions and decisions. She's been 'punishing ' me on and off for the last 5 years or so for reasons known only to herself and I initially found this confusing so I really tried to comfort her, or straighten out each issue/problem. It turns out that she's just peevish, petulant, self centred and fully blown narcissistic herself. This is when I found this site and realised that this is soooo common.
I've completely disengaged, my parents were the last straw. I looked back at what she had been putting us through and saw her for what she is. I realised that we had been ignoring extreme behaviour, (long, long story) Gorgeous husband and I have had, and continue to have deep conversations about how to handle this alien situation. The important thing is that we are together on this, and GH has also gone no contact, even though she has really tried to conquer and devide us.
There is no excuse for your partners lack of support. Your loss of a child and his daughters non-acknowledgement of the impact this devastating loss has had is completely unacceptable or forgiveable.
My ysd has no idea that we have disengaged, she still believes that she will be able to manipulate her way back for the next round of nastiness. It won't occur to her that I have spoken to her only once briefly, in a forced social setting, in the last 18 months, and even though I shouldn't, I'm looking forward to the day that she approaches me. I have one word left to say to her, and that word is NO.
Please look after yourself and your children, you are not being self-centered about this. You have suffered a huge loss and should have had warmth and love ❤️. You and your kids should have been at the forefront and not sidelined. Your feelings should not be minimalized.
Sending heart felt love and enveloping warmth to you from me to you sweetie xxx
Deepest unimaginable pain
Thank you for your kind words. There are literally no words on earth that can describe the feeling from losing a child. It is so unnatural in the order of life. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I don't know if my heart will survive it, but I'm doing my best to cling to life for the sake of my other children who are deeply grieving as well.
To think that in spite of being aware of my loss, she could still be so mean. Who is mean to a grieving mother? Sociopaths, psychos and selfish immature daughters with mommy daddy reunion fantasies. I told him he can't continue to let them exclude me, when does it end? It's been 6 years already. Put on your big girl panties and cut it out!
I'm sorry for your loss and what your SB put you through. Smh
Just to add
I wouldn't have given my husband 4 seconds to mull over any decision that involved my exclusion, and vice versa. You deserve so much better. Lay out the facts in order and ask him what he thinks your next move should be. Discuss boundaries and rules that are non- negotiable to you and explain the meaning of respect. You are not a second class citizen and you should not be sidelined, ever, but especially at this time.
If he argues with the facts, and rationality, then perhaps it might be time to cut ties with him and go forward without the constant upset and disappointment ? You can't be expected to sit back and be ignored or made to feel insignificant.
In any event, give yourself time to think about your next move and remember that you can't rationalise rationality. Call that crap out for what it is. No normal human being would think that the treatment you have received is anything less than horrific and inhumane. Don't settle for that sweetie xxx
Absolutely Right
You're absolutely right! The fact that he even told me she can invite whoever she wants, indicates that he intends to abide by her wishes. Obviously if I tell him, we go together or you don't go at all, he's not gonna go for that. We had one semi heated discussion about it when he told me the other day.
I was so upset, I had to Google it. I wanted to find out if I was wrong for expecting to go with him to his daughter's wedding, this is a first for me and maybe new partners being excluded should be expected. Didn't feel right because it isn't. No justification. I've never done anything to this girl, excuse me, woman-child, and have only been around her in a setting with more of their extended family twice, and she didn't talk to me the entire time on either occasion.
I will remind him of what our non-negotiables are and remind him that he told me he would never spend time with her mother again, after the Christmas dinner together after graduation.
Based on a lot of other things he's done to me in this relationship that I've forgiven him for, moving on maybe my only option left for self preservation.
Thank you
This doesn't have to be a
This doesn't have to be a black and white issue. Clearly, you don't have a good relationship with his older daughter.. the fault likely lays at the feet of others.. (your DH, his EX.. his adult daughter).. but the fact remains.. the relationship is not good. When you are getting married, you want people that are a positive in your life.. I certainly wouldn't want to invite someone I disliked.. even if some ettiquette rule said I should (that tbh.. these rules come from a time when steplife.. divorce and those complexities were much rarer).
BUT.. just because you might not attend the ceremony (tbh.. I wouldn't want to.. do you really want to celebrate someone you probably don't care for much either??? and spend time with his toxic EX?) that doesn't mean you couldn't accompany him on the trip.. and it doesnt mean that he has to stay in the same house as his EX.. That is the bridge too far IMHO. The ceremony.. meh.. I wouldn't want to go anyway.. but him thinking it's ok for him to traipse off to some foreign country and stay in the same home (much to intimate).. as his EX? nopety nope nope.
No Relationship
I don't have a bad relationship with her, I have no relationship with her. I blame my SO for this because he is the bridge between his daughters and me and he didn't do things to bring us together. I created opportunities for him to be around my kids in fun settings so that they can all get to know each other. After 3 years together it was normal for him to be around us for events and fun days.
He lives in NJ they live in upstate NY. When he spends time with his daughters, it's always meeting at a restaurant in upstate NY. They have come to his house to spend time with him maybe once. So since this is their arrangement, I'm not a part of these daddy daughter dinners and have never been invited by him. I think these are moments when I could have been includes so they start to get to know me. Instead, 6 years later they barely know me.
However, we don't have to know, love and be besties with people who come to our wedding. Normal weddings include a plus one and often times we never met the plus one, but we don't care because the person they came with is the person we cared about being there and they are. We've attended many weddings togther where one or the other of us didn't even know the people getting married. That usually isn't a probelm unless it's used for alterior motives, like it's being used now.
For me, it would be an opportunity to share in an important day in my SO's life (as he was allowed to share mine at my son's wedding) and less of a celebration of her union. He claims he would stay in a hotel, but I don't believe that. Once they're there, they'd talk him into staying or one night after a day of fun and drinking, he ends up sleeping over. Nope nope and nopety nope are right.
I'm also just sick and tired of him and his ex spending time being happy family, creating and sharing new moments and memories together, when they ended 6 years ago as if I don't effing matter. How much more time they need to accept it? How many more life events do I need to be excluded from before enough is enough?
A romantic partner is not
A romantic partner is not necessarily the same as a "random" plus one. Clearly his EX may have poisoned with well somewhat with his daughters.
I agree that the father daughter dinners would have been a good test to see how you got along.. and at least had some time to get to know each other.. so if they were going to hate you.. they could hate "you".. not just the "idea" of you. but after 6 years.. it's pretty clear he intends to keep his past live (including his kids) somewhat separate from you.
I don't know that i would be up for that in a partner.
Technically.. romantic partners should be included as guests in the typical social settings like weddings.. but I do think that divorce/steplife complicates that.. and in the end.. if his daughter is concerned your presence would be hurtful to her mother.. obviously she is going to take mom over you... Had you had a chance to build more of a relationship..perhaps she could have said.. "SM.. I'm sorry but I havent' invited you to the ceremony.. my mom is just not over the divorce and you being there would dredge up a lot of hurt and bad memories for her.. I hope you understand that I don't want that negativity at my wedding."
Yes.. in that case.. it's still not your "fault".. but in the end.. who wants to invite someone that is a problem or who's presence will cause a problem.. it's not like the daughter can tell her mom to straighten up.. I mean.. yeah.. she could.. but like a load of lead balloons.. lol.
Punish dad protect mom
I believe part of this prolonged exclusion of me is out of a desire to punish her father and defend her mother. So she protects her mom by disliking/hating the person he loves (a stranger), because of who I am to her father. Hating, as you said, "the idea" of me, not me, because she doesn't know me.
It's not normal to automatically dislike people we don't know who haven't done anything to us. But if she sees me at the roadbloack to her parents being together, then maintaining these irrational feelings for me, serve a purpose.
It's also every time I'm told, "it's not gonna happen again," it does and I'm sick of it. I've been beyond, patient and tolerant, but all of the adult behavior shouldn't just be coming from me. We have to accept things in life may not always be the way we want, like I have to do now, losing my son. But that doesn't give us a right to be cruel to others and right now in my opinion, this is just nasty behavior with alterior motives behind it.
The problem here isn't your
The problem here isn't your SD, it's your SO.Yes, it's her wedding and yes, she knows exactly what she's doing BUT he also knows exactly what he's doing and if he decides to go, he's clearly approving her decision.
Wanna bet there's only 3 bedrooms in their Airbnb?
This would be a hill to die on. Leave. His treatment of you so far is nothing to be proud of. You deserve so much better than this. He doesn't have the maturity to have an adult relationship.
Definitely not dying on this hill
Facts! They BOTH know what they're doing. She manipulates him into not bringing me to give her parents alone time together and he maniputates me to act like it's not his fault, he has no choice because it's her decision. Yes, I see them both.
And I bet you are right about the number of rooms in the villa. Who's he going to be seated next to at the ceremony, ex-wife. Who's he going to be seated next to at the after dinner/reception (idk what the plan is), ex-wife. Who's going to be his dance partner? Ex-wife. This is deliberate and so clear a blind person can see it for what it is.
This is a vomit-inducing
This is a vomit-inducing scenario. I am so very sorry for your loss and what you are going through, and then this bs splattered on top of everything. I'd be ready to get away from him and his trainload of toxic baggage. You deserve so much better.
Ok, he's acting like he's
Ok, he's acting like he's still married. To her. Are you sure he isn't? Don't put up with being treated like a dirty little secret while he does "family" with his ex. If he can't be "all in" with you, he will just cause you pain. Also, I'm so sorry about the loss of your child. I can't imagine.
She basically still is his wife
I'm a single mother that was raising 4 children on my own after my divorce. When he left his wife, he voluntarily gave her $2K a month to help her out financially. He did this faithfully until his divorce, when he was then ordered to pay alimony of I believe, $2300 a month. He also took on all the family debt (about $200K) when he left, didn't take anything from the home, starting over 100% from scratch. He works a lot of overtime, problably 20-30 hours a week, making about $200K.
In spite of me being a struggling single mom, he's never offered to help me financially and I never ask. He has helped me with a few minor car repairs or treated me to getting my nails done a few times, but if I'm in a bind financially, I can't depend on "my man" because he's still taking care of his ex wife. I told him I'm in a relationship but continuing to do life alone.
Although I stopped being a secret 3 years ago, it is kinda like they're still married when taking care of her needs and feelings, always trump mine.
I will also weigh in and say
I will also weigh in and say your SO is the problem.
First, sounds like he is still married.. potentially.. and maybe that was a reason he needed to discuss taxes with the ex? I don't know.
Second, He has not raised his kids well.. not sending a card when your daughter passed? That's poor upbringing.. they likely never learned to do the right thing..
Third, he treated/treats you like a dirty secret.. his kids see that and use it to their advantage.. and since he was not a good parent... they feel ok being an AH to you.
Fourth.. re the wedding. His older daughter certainly does have the right to have people she wants at her wedding. I am actually not 100% in line with new partners needing to be included in everything.. though many will disagree.. I just feel in some cases.. there can be enough bad blood (whether with the Skid.. or the EX) that in certain circumstances (small intimate occasions..) that having the new partners could detract and cause drama.. yes.. I get that the drama could not be the SP's fault.. but I have bowed out of many showers etc.. so I don't have to be around my DH's EX.. and tbh.. it's a bit of a gift to the SD's that they don't have to deal with that awkwardness on days that are supposed to be about them.
BUT.. just because you are not going to the actual wedding does not mean that he has to shack up with his EX in some cottage with his kids playing happy family. You could go.. find other accomodations and just not go to the actual wedding and have your own couples vacation! but that is not anything he seems to be offering.. so I am with you.. he gets on that plane without you.. it is over.
Not married but loyalty lies with her
Thank you. I agree with you.
He's not married anymore, although it took a long time. But when it comes to who he chooses to disappoint or upset, it's me. So the loyalty and protection (protecting her/his daugthers) from having to be in my presence, when I'm not the one who would cause any trrouble, she would.
You're right, they weren't raised right, neither was he. They weren't raised to be kind, honest, compassionate, respectful or anything positive, other than to be workaholics. But in terms of character, selfish, mean and lack of self-control.
Yes, I was a secret for several years and he justified it by continously saying, it's too soon. I didn't understand how it was too soon for adults who saw their parent's toxic marriage their whole lives, to accept that their father is with someone else. My kids didn't like him because they saw how much he was hurting me, but they were never mean towards him.
And while new partners don't need to be included in everything, I haven't been included in anyting in 6 years when it comes to his daughters. When does it end? This would be the first time I'd be included and when it's a wedding in a foreign country where they will be spending time together outside of the wedding, a family vacation 6 years after the marriage ended, is beyond what is reasonable to be expected from me, in my opinion. I accepted all of the other exclusions in spite of feeling it was wrong, when he's included in everything in my life. But I'm drawing the line here.
I was thinking about things this moring after my post last night and had actually thought of exactly that. Like ok, we are going to Spain together. We will be staying in a hotel together. We will have a rental car and I will drop you off at the wedding and when it's over, you come back out to the car where I'll be waiting and we continue our vacation. He will have fulfilled his duty as a father to be there and his duty to me to not go on a vacation wedding with his ex-wife.So great idea, thanks!
I am guessing if he left the
I am guessing if he left the marriage.. he probably carries some guilt for that.. and that may feed into his inability to take some hard line stance with his daughters. They are his children.. and he may feel that he would "lose" them if he does try to force some stance on them.
It's also selfish.. by allowing you to not be included in "anything".. he doesn't have to deal with the fallout from his kids.. from his family.. even if THEY are the one that would be a problem.. he realizes that there could be problems.. so he just avoids it by allowing them to exclude you. Don't get me wrong.. I don't go places that there would be a chance of toxic behavior.. I'm too damn old to deal with that crap.. so I don't go to showers etc... my choice.. (though I have been invited by his kids.. I choose to bow out.. so I get there is a bit of a difference)..
another difference is my DH has zero desire to spend one minute with his Ex.. and we didn't even go to his younger daughter's destination ceremony for her wedding to avoid being in some intimate setting with the ex. (daughter actually had a legal ceremony in the US that we did attend that was actually their real marriage.. mom did not go to that.. was not invited).
So, your DH may be doing all this to keep the peace with his kids.. maybe out of some guilt for leaving their mom? I don't know.
But.. yes.. going to spain.. dropping him off for the ceremony and brief appearance at whatever reception is ok in my opinion.. but I would stand firm that you go with him on the trip.. or he doesn't go period.
Think you nailed it
You totally nailed it...his guilt for leaving. So being soft on them giving into everything they want to not upset them, so he takes no stance with them.
Because he knows them and know that they (ex and daughter) would have more of a problem with being around me than me being around them, he probably believes they would make trouble with me. And while I'm not a trouble maker, I'm not a quiet coward. However, I know how to behave given the circumstances and would walk away at an event rather than get into any kind of altercation.
He doesn't mind spending time around his ex and I'm sure goes out of his way to be nice. When he left, she said the door is always open, he can always come back home. These are two people who don't mind being around each other and I know she enjoys it, especially when she knows he left me behind. She knows she has time alone with for however long and I won't ever know what occurred.
He's definitely doing it out of guilt, selfish cowardice, to appease and keep the peace with his adult daughters and ex over keeping the peace with me.
When/if we go to Spain (hoping it gets called off now), the compromise will be, since I wasn't invited to the wedding, that is the only thing he gets to attend without me. No reception, no dinner and drinks with mommy after.
Weddings with step daughters
Neither being a COD nor being
Neither being a COD nor being a bride/groom justifies shit treatment of anyone else.
I have not had the experience of the marriage of a SKid. Though I hope I woudl have the man sack to shut that type of shit down ahead of time and in real time if anyone tried that crap. My bride would deck the Spermidiot if he even attempted to touch her. I would deal with what she left of him.
No dancing, no partnering to walk down the isle, no sitting separately, none of that crap would happen. Neither of us would give a shit about what either the bride or groom wanted regarding building a facade of the mommy/daddy crap.
The pathetic seems to be frequently heavy in many failed family gene pools when it comes to weddings. I feel for the bride or groom who marries into the mess.
I don't get it
Married to her father 27 years by the time she got married and they still pulled that crap??!! Seriously, WTF is the mentality behind these adults holding on to such ugly behavior for so many years?? If their parents weren't happy together, they wanted them to stay together that way?
Why don't they want their parents to be happy? Why is it expected that their parents accept the person they love, but they won't accept the person their parents love? And why do so many of the exes (seems like mainly ex wives) enjoy engaging in these immature behaviors?
My son got married and there was zero drama, we all had a great time. If my son had even suggested that his father and I walk in together when his father is remarried and I'm in a relationship, I would've said, "Nope. Sorry baby, I love you, but that's disrespectful to our partners and creates drama and bad vibes." Those thoughts weren't even in my son's head anyway. He was raised to be thoughtful and kind.
The ex wives seem to relish in creating trouble and teaching their daughters that being jerks, being bitches, destroying relationships (since this seems to often end in estrangement), is more important than happiness and love on their wedding days. Smh.
The EWs are so pathetic to try and keep creating problems in a relationship that ended long ago. They are horrible parents to want their daughters or sons to hold animosity, towards people who haven't done anything wrong to them, just because they didn't give birth to them. I could never have taught my kids to be so hateful and ugly.
I had hoped to have normal relationships with his daughters one day, but now I don't care. You're a 30 yo woman. You don't want anything to do with me, I don't want anything to do with you either.
The thing worse than a PASd child is a former PASd child
The thing worse than a PASd child is a former PASd child who reaches kidulthood and still continues to suckle on the PASing tit(s) of their shit parent(s). Drinking the noxious Kool-Aid while the SParent's mate fails to deal with the whole failed family baggage shit show serving the SP up as the sacrifice to the entire mess. Under the guise of simping to the SKids, and their X, while trying to convince their chosen SPartner of how loved they are.
"KIDulthood" - love it!
Love kidulthood. That is exactly what they are behaving like children, when they shoulda been adults a long time ago. Thing is, my SO's daughters were already adults when he left. They were 20 and 24, the youngest became pregnant a few months later and the older one had moved out because her sister was going to be moving a baby in. They were never children of divorced parents. They were working women, one with a kid and one living on her own. Did they expect their father to stay single or were they hoping he'd come back, considering EW told him the door to return is always OPEN?
You put it perfectly. So often the BD doesn't stand up for his new partner, no matter how long they've been together and sits quietly by while the SO has to defend herself against constant attacks from his ex and kids. We become the sacrifice for their failed families to take out their anger and dysfunction on, while our partners do nothing in the name of "keeping the peace."
Why are they only concerned with keeping the peace with the trouble making people they no longer share a life or live with, over the person they actually are sharing a life with? Yet, they keep telling us they love us, while not protecting us by standing up to their ex and kidults.
It's interesting that in these step situations, there's always a good side and a bad side. One side that comes in peace and love, and a side that comes with war and hate. One side that wants us to be happy and get along and one side that wants division and strife all the time.
If they are so miserable (bc someone else is happy or doesn't want them anymore), they need deep long term therapy. Their behaviors are all major red flags for serious mental health issues.
Smh.
Why? Because we make it too easy on them to ignore the toxic.
"Why are they only concerned with keeping the peace with the trouble making people they no longer share a life or live with, over the person they actually are sharing a life with?"
The potential whys are nearly infinite. What is important is ending the what, which is the crap behaviors. IMHO this is resolved by an instant swift kick to the ass of the prior breeder baggage coddling failure of a partner every time their noxious baggage oversteps. Zero tolerance and regular beatings about the head and shoulders (figuratively of course) with the standards of behavior, standards of performance, and related boundaries that we set as non negotiables makes it clear that the partner has to deliver. If the SO catches the consequences instantly then has no choice but to watch while their X is shredded, and their shit spawn is/are flushed they will either step up and deliver, or leave taking their prior family failures with them.
Either way it truly is a win for the SPartner. We either get a quality equity life partner, or we get a fresh shot at a new life adventure without the failed partner and their failed family baggage maintaining a parasitic presence in our lives.
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I believe one of the reasons
I believe one of the reasons steps are unaccepting is because they don't like the fact that we are now in line for inheritance of things instead of them. They have no investment in us and feel that we are in their way.
Inheritance of what?
He and I aren't married, don't live in the same state, don't share finances, or even a streaming account. I'm sure that he has left his beneficiaries on his insurance policies the same as they were whenever he made them - his EW and 2 daughters. His wife is getting half his pension in a year or 2 and he's deep in debt because of his family. I have gained nothing and will never gain anything in this relationship. Since I've been with him, he's supported her to the tune of $25k a year the last 6 years, when I don't know if he's ever given me $2K. All the overtime he works, that cuts into time he can see me, because he often works his days off, are all for her and them. He doesn't sweat one drop for me. There is NO investment in me or this relationship. I thought I was going to have a best friend and a partner and walked into a nightmare.
I don't think that is
I don't think that is something that young kids would be keyed in on. I can definitely see it as a possible issue with adult kids.. especially if their parent potentially marries someone much younger..
It happens too.. my father and his 4 brothers got little from their father's estate.. the SM got most of it and ultimately it was left to her two bio sons (one was with my grandfather).. My grandfather passed in his 50's... so reasonably young (their mother died when they were small boys). My father actually maintained a good relationship with his SM until she passed.. but I can't help but see the wealth she got was shunted off to her kids only in the end.. and my dad and his brother's family were not included at that point ... there was not insignificant wealth either.. she owed a penthouse appt in a big city worth millions.. and that was just part of it all.
And.. yes.. it was my grandfather's to do what he wished with.. but I doubt he would have known his wife would change the locks on the apartment and that his wife would write up loan agreements to repay her for the cost of their boarding school tuition as children. they didn't sign haha.
I can see that
I can see inheritance being something that adult children might be concerned with and rightfully so, when their parents don't do right by them in the will.
That's not the concern here. His was unfaithful to her sexually, but has been abundantly faithful financially. He is not letting his EW ever struggle or even worry for a second, how she's going to make ends meet. He offered her $2k/mo when he left and his daughters who were living at home, were both adults with jobs. His EW and daughters will get whatever he has left after retiring in debt with only half his pension.
He has never been a financial source for me beyond minor things like gas, mani-pedi, and minor car repairs (I pay the major ones $500+) and some cash in an envelope as a gift once or twice. I don't even consider him when I'm thinking about finances and I know he would never add me as a beneficiary to anything he'd have left lol.
I like this idea a lot!
I like this idea a lot!
Any idea where in Spain this will be happening? What time of year?
September in Spain
I don't remember which city, he mentioned the name once a few months ago when he first told me she was planning to get married in Spain. That's when I first told him, I hope he didn't think he'd be going to Spain with is ex-wife, without me. It's in September, but I don't remember the exact dates, he wasn't clear. Somewhere around the 12th I think.
Just being nosey
I was just wondering because it can get really hot in Spain depending on when and where you go.
Great
Thanks for the heads up. I like it hot!
I understand the way you feel
And your feeling are right. No playing ''happy family'' The main problem is your SO. SD can feel anyway she wants. She a person. Your. SO must stop all this nonsense. He wants a relationship with you, he must have your back. No going to the wedding with out you.
'If he he goes make it clear you are making your plans to exit this relationship
The coward is the problem
You're right, he's definitely more of the problem because like I stated in a previous post, he's done nothing in 6 years to create opportunities for us to all be around each other, so they can get to know me. He let them hold on to their positions.Their feelings are theirs and they're entitled to them, however unjustified they may be. Although the younger one with the daughter, has accepted me and acts normal around me now. I've seen her a few times at his parent's house when they've celebrated either of his parent's birthdays, a father's day and a birthday for the granddaughter. The other one getting married, acts like she's 9 and daddy just left yesterday. I blame him for doing nothng the past 6 years to help them adjust to reality.
And I did make that clear to him that would be the end and no coming back from. So hopefully, the next time we address this issue he will be open to us going to spain on our own vacation, which will be interrupted briefly for him to attend her ceremony only. Take their stupid pictures, then it's, "Bye biayatches!"
They won’t let him leave after the wedding.
They will expect him to partake in the reception dinner, and then the partying into the night. If there's drinking like there is most weddings, people will get more brazen and demand that he stay and play.
Exactly
Exactly. I'm not invited to the wedding, so he's not going to the reception and if he wants to go, I'm going. There's not going to be any getting drunk and dancing the night away with mommy. Just like he'd get drunk and they'd talk him into staying in the villa, and he'd end up in her bed and what happens in Spain would stay the secret amongst them.
She would've successfully excluded me and get the satisfaction of knowing her father cheated on me with her mother. He's not stepping foot on the shores of Spain without me, unless our relationship is over already.
How would your SO react if
How would your SO react if you stopped allowing him access to your family and your children? Would he be understanding and accepting, since he does the same to you?
How would you feel if this were happening to one of your children? What advice would you give them? Would you tell them to just accept it and hope at some point it gets better?
He wouldn't like it at all
If I started saying that he's excluded because my daughter doesn't want him there, he would absolutely not be understanding, he would be mad. My daugther dislikes him the most and even blocked his number in my phone once because of the stress he was putting me through. I ended up with high blood pressure and borderline diabetic because of the stress of this relationship. Yet, he still expects to be welcomed into every part of my family's life, when my kids would actually be justified in excluding him.
If one of my kids were in this shituation, I'd tell them being excluded from their partner while their partner goes on vacation with their ex, regardless of the reason is highly disrespectul to them and the relationship. I'd remind them that they're amazing, caring, and kind and deserve to be treated better and if it's still going on after 6 years, it's unlikely to change at any point in the future. They are showing you who they are...so believe them.
Yep, I'm listening...
"shituation" LOL!
"shituation" LOL!
I think your idea of going to Spain with him, and him going to
I think your idea of going to Spain with him, and him going to the wedding without you, is a great plan. Since he kept you a secret for so long, is there any chance that they think you were having an affair with him before the split? If so, that could account for some of the hostility.
Probably
That isn't the case, but probably the picture she's choosing to paint for their daughters. He was married over 20 years and had been unfaithful numerous times. His wife was angry, bitter and resentful during their marriage and rightfully so, but lived with it. He was a liar and serial cheater, which I questioned him on when he approached me about being in a relationship. I told him I had no desire to be in a relationship with someone living like he was.
After leaving his wife, he expressed to me that he didn't want to live that way anymore. Being middle aged now, he wanted to settle down and be happy. I was skeptical, but had always believed the best in people and that they were mostly honesty, especially someone that's supposed to like or love you. So I gave him the benefit of the doubt. Big mistake on my part and I don't think that way anymore, I believe the opposite.
He kept me a secret after he left his maraiage, so that he could do the same thing to me, continue to live a life secretly hanging out in bars, lounges and parties. He lived in NY, I lived in PA. He'd live one life up there, and come down to see me and live another one here. I had no idea of his double life for the first 2.5 years. So keeping me a secret from his other world was more convenient for him. He was keeping secrets from all of us.
Now before anyone gets on me for being with a no good lying cheater (totally different subject) I know. We went through hell, I even ended things last Jan. After 5 months apart, he came back begging to reconcile. I was in a better place and happy, so I guess that made me more generous than I should've been to someone who hurt me so much. But he committed to working on himself and his issues for the first time in his life and is currently in therapy, so I'm giving him a chance to show he's serious about change. He discontinued that lifestyle of drinking and hanging out 3 years ago now, from what I can tell.
Because I happen to be the woman that came after mom, in terms of him being in a relationship and not just a nothing affair, she hates me for being the "replacement." She has heard from her daughters of all the trips we've taken (I started him on traveling by plane and international destinations) when all they did was take bus rides from the Bronx to upstate NY or a few drives to Myrtle Beach. That's why she called him on one of our trips, to insert herself and exert the power of her position.
I'm sure she's seen pictures of us that he shared with his daugthers from our trips and it just fanned the flames of jealousy. I'm in my 50's, look like I'm in my 30s, and a personal trainer, so physically very fit and look pretty good in a bikini (not bragging, it was a lot of hard work at my age). Seeing pics of me looking healthy and us looking happy, has to infuriate her. So I wouldn't put it past her to poison them against me by telling them he left because of me, when that isn't the case.
They don't know the truth, he avoids difficult subjects with his kids and has too much shame to tell them he ruined the marriage with nothing to do with me. I've told him he needs to talk to his daughters, own up to his behaviors that hurt their family and let them know by the time we started a relationship, he had already left. I had my reservations as to his sincerity and been hurt by him too, however I refuse to be anymore. Especially when I'm in the kind of deep pain that will last the rest of my life.
So I have zero patience left and he does right by me this time or I'm out and he can live with the fact that he lost me because he placed higher value on his ex and daughter, people living their own lives, than he did on me, the person he says to love and want to spend the rest of his life with.
One of the biggest parts of the problem is that they do not know
One of the biggest parts of the problem is that they do not know the truth. I would add daddy giving his spawn the full frontal full meal deal facts flag to the hill to die on for this guy.
You are fit, attractive, and a catch. Why sacrifice yourself on the altar of SParental martyrdom to this spineless dipshit and his failed family baggage?
Stop that!
The problem is that her DH
The problem is that her DH WAS the problem in the marriage from what she is saying.. He was lying, cheating, drinking.. shoot.. this behavior didn't stop for several years while OP was dating him herself.
And.. I hate to pile on pessicism here but a leopard has a super hard time changing spots.. they may get on the wagon, so to speak for a bit.. but his default lifestyle is not compatible with a relationship.
Even now.. he is basically carrying on with that same mindset.. pretty much hiding his GF away like some dirty little secret.
And.. it has nothing to do with how good she looks from the perspective of a cheater.. they can blather on about how they strayed because the wife let themself go.. but the reality is cheaters cheat.. and not always with people that are even better than what they already have.. look at hollywood and some pretty fantastic people (appearance wise anyway).. get cheated on constantly. For some guys it may be for many reasons.. the conquest.. the adventure.. the hedonistic pleasure... etc.. but him cheating has little to do with his spouse.. and a LOT to do with the kind of person he is... and still is.. he may not be actively acting out as far as she knows.. but he could be hiding it better.. or tamping down that desire.. just temporarily..
But the full frontal meal for his kids is that he was a douche canoe. and as we all know.. kids will often turn a blinder eye to their bio parent.. and still blame the SP.
I agree with the last part.. this guy has a lot of baggage and a lot of tendencies that aren't great material in a life time equity partner.
It's not even just the cheating.. he is not generous with his GF.. he could be but isn't. He keeps her on the margins with his family.. and I don't think that changes.
I think OP would do better to toss back the guy who has cheated on her for years.. and find someone who does want a full equity partner.
Round of applause
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
That right there! You got it.
I am in complete agreement with you ESMOD.
Regardless of the SO's history, the OP has zero duty to tolerate his baggage interfering in her relationship or her life in any way.
The OP needs to put the trash out and get on with living her best life.
There is absolutely no doubt about that.
Thank you
I have been telling him for years he needs to talk to them like adults and stop trying to avoid the subject just because they don't like it. How can people come to an understanding if they don't communicate about it? Leaving everyone to their imaginations is creating more drama than is necessary.
And if he doesn't agree that I'm going, I will be taking my sexy ass on a caribbean vacay all by myself to celebrate the end of 6 years of cruelty and disrespect.
Okay..... WTF are you doing keeping this trash and his garbage
baggage in your life?
From your description of you, you can do soooooooo much better.
So do better.
NOW!
Your own DD has made this message clear. If you will not use your head, at least listen to your kid.
Given all of that history, if he goes to Spain without you,
Given all of that history, if he goes to Spain without you, when he comes home he should find all of his belonging on the front porch. You have put up with so much from this guy, this should be the last straw.
If we lived together
We don't live together, but if we did, he would come back to nothing because I woulda had a bonfire lol.
I also like the idea of you
I also like the idea of you going to Spain w him but just not attending the wedding. It would be a great vacay.
Your ball-less simp of an SO is nauseating.
Use his cowardice to your advantage. He fears his XW and his failed family spawn. Make sure he fears your wrath far more than he fears them.
Go with him. Attend whether you are invited or not. The two of you book a luxury suite at the resort where the wedding will be held. Be radiant, be haughty, be engaging. Dress to the 9s, light the dance floor on fire. Be clearly happy on each other's arm.
Be the light that sends the roaches scurrying for the shadows. They are roaches. They will scurry. Roaches always do.
Show your ball-less XW and failed family spawn simping SO that testicular fortitude out performs cowardice every time
Have fun with all of it.
Lol
LOL, that would be awesome! But alas, I'm not a trouble maker, but if I was, I would do exactly that! LOL LOL!!! Thanks for that laugh, I needed it.
This dude must be good
This dude must be good looking or have a giant schl*ng. Even if he were rich, he's stingy, so that's not it. He's not loyal and he is a cheater. From what it sounds like, he even cheated on you. Or is it some kind of trauma bond? The drama keeps you hooked, constantly chasing and trying to be fully accepted? Seriously, i've not read one good thing.
You're right
What can I say? You're right and he did cheat on me too.
I've experienced a lot of trauma in my life, the most recent the shocking traumatizing death of my 15 year old son. I'm broken down mentally and spiritually. I'm in the lowest point of my life and the least I expect is that people would be kind and that the human representing as my partner would be supportive. Kicking someone when they're already down and suffering displays the lowest of low character.
Please put yourself first,
Please put yourself first, whatever that looks like to you. You deserve better.
I'm so very sorry about your son.
I have not lost a child. I did watch my parents go through it when we lost my youngest brother.
Be kind to yourself.
Take care of you.
Literally
It is literally the worst thing that can happen to a person. I don't know that my heart is going to survive it.
My parents have survived
My parents have survived their version of your loss. Know that love is immortal. Your son lives in your heart and your memory.
Mom and dad focused on our family.
Focus on the love in your family and your older children.
Embrace the grief. Live it while you are feeling it. Live the memories, and live a full life. of love and joy with your family.
Take care of you. For yourself and for your children.
Just my opinion and memories of course.
Thank you
Thank you. I appreciate everything you said.
It's still so fresh, I still feel like I'm walking around in a daze, still in shock. This is our first Mother's Day without him and it is already hurting me so much. Every special occasion will now be full of pain. Just thinking about it makes me break down. I've been wanting to go sit on a beach and just stare at the water all day. So I booked an airbnb on the Jersey Shore where my children and I will spend this 1st painful Mother's Day together.
Next month, we have 2 birthdays to celebrate, his is one of them. The past few months, that has been my focus, planning an amazing 16th birthday party for him. Had so many special things to look for and order, but it's all nearly done. One of the last things to get are butterfuly kits, so that we can grow them and release them that day.
DH likes playing
Happy family with the X. it must give him some happiness to be with the X and his ''''her'''family. I would not stand for it. My DW went to see her X with the kids and hung out with bim. '''For the kids'''. I told her if she did it again I would be gone.
'She was a. A adult and could do what she wanted. I was a adult and could do what I wanted. She had to pick a man. No buddy's with the X in my book.
Exes need to stay in the past
I agree. I was never a believer in remaining friends with an ex. What for? What's the purpose, especially when you are in another relationship? They shouldn't be talking on the phone for anything because their children are adults they can talk directly to. There's no more arranging weekends or pickups/dropoffs. Dont't have to discuss school or sports. Nothing. So why do you have each other's numbers? To talk about....your relationships? Your adult children? Sex? Exes who maintain contact often end up in bed again. He's hung out with his ex with his daughters enough. No more. The line in the sand is drawn and immovable.
My bride and I moved back to the city where my first marriage
A few months after we married my bride and I moved back to the city where my first marriage had been. About 18mos after we moved there we ran into my XILs as we were being seated for breakfast one AM.
My XMIL's eyes grew to the size of dinner plates when I introduced my wife and our son to my XMIL and XFIL. It was decidedly uncomfortable. My XMIL was doing mental math so hard smoke was coming out of her ears as she was trying to figure out how old my son was and what the time frame was for my remarriage and having a kid. No comments by XMIL about her out of wedlock breeding serially adultrous whore of a daughter.
They invited us to their ranch for a family gathering. She was all about me beeing family and since I was family, my wife and kid were family.
We received invitations for holidays and family gatherings for several years after that. I got birthday cards and Christmas cards with money in them from my XILs for many years after the divorce.
Some people.
Peevish cruelty
If this family of inept, emotionally stunted idiots think that this is 'normal', after 6 years, I think that it's a massive wave of red flags.
In perhaps the most vulnerable time of your life, you have been unforgivably let down.
Your partner seems to be having a fabulous time, women fighting over him, it must be a huge ego massage. All he has to put up with is a little 'nagging' and nothing changes for him. He's doing what he wants regardless of your feelings.
Take some time to heal a little, look after you and your kids and formulate an exit plan that works for you when you are ready .
If it were me, I'd change locks, etc and then send him a message along the lines of 'it's not me, it's definitely you' , don't wait for a response and block everything. No oxygen. ❤️
Normal for them
Ever since meeting his family, his siblings and daughter's in particular, I've never understood them. Outwardly they appear to have love for each other, but they engage in dishonesy, meanness, vindictiveness, disrespect and it's all just part of their relationships with each other.
When he was keeping me a secret from his family, I told him he was lying to them by not telling them I exist. He disagreed. He kept saying, they're not ready. I know the truth was, HE wasn't ready. He didn't want to deal with their reactions or fallout. He avoids things as much as he can and is ok with 100 elephants in the room.
When he finally told his older sister, again these are people in their 50s smh, she told him not to tell his daughters or in other words, keep lying to them! At his bro in laws birthday party at a restaurant, his BIL came on to me several times that night, saying very inappropriate things, with his wife and family there! I couldn't believe it. When I told my SO, he said that he was probably just joking. I was stunned. I said, he wasn't joking, he was making passes at me. He said, he was probably drunk. Anyway we ended up in an argument and he never did anything. So being around the BIL at subsequent events, is awkward for me. I feel like I have to be on my guard and avoid him as much as possible because if his wife sees him looking at me with lust in his eyes, she's going to want to fight ME! They have drinking problems and grew up fighting a lot, so when they get drunk they can get mean. I learned all of these things by observation and some disclosures the past 6 years. smh
I raised my children differently. I raised them to be honest, kind, respectful to others and non-violent. I have 4 boys and one girl and none of my children have ever been in a fight. No one in his family was raised that way or they developed disorders in development due to abuse, trauma or neglect, that caused them to vibrate on low levels, ending up with addictions and other negative behaviors. The only people in his close family that have been nice to me since meeting them are his mother and younger sister.
We don't live together so no locks to change and there has been zero fighting over him. I have never talked to or been in the presence of his ex. We have literally never met once. He made sure of that by excluding me from everything. So the wedding would be the first time we would meet and probably the last time we'd ever be around each other again, but they wanna exclude me from that. Clearly these adults (using term loosely) can't handle a few hours of adult civility even for a happy occasion. smh
I told him after what happened to me, I will not tolerate a drop of toxicity from anyone. I am broken and feel like I die everyday, over and over again. I will never be healed from this and can't handle anyone's poison. I told him nothing anyone can do can hurt me now because the pain I'm in is at the max of what life can dish out. It's worse than losing a parent, spouse, sibling. It's worse than being lied to, worse than being cheated on, worse than being excluded, worse than mean ass people. Everything else in life that can happen to me, is beneath the worse that has already happened. The only thing people can do to me now, is piss me the f##k off, get cursed the f##k out, and get kicked the f##k out of my life. I told him if he chooses not to do right by me, then that's what's going to happen.
I am only allowing people to stay in my life who have demonstrated love, support and care for my family. I was surprised by people I thought were close who disappeared and people who I considered distant that reappeared and strangers who appeared out of nowhere. Sadly, death has a way of revealing everyone's true feelings about us.
Deep breaths TM5.
According to my mom and dad, the grief never compleely fades but it does grow less frequent over the years. My youngest nephew was born on the same day within minutes of the same time as my youngest brother. When my nephew was born mom and dad burst into tears. Both of joy, and of grief. That was more than 30 years after my brother died.
Be kind to yourself.
Lasts forever
I've heard that from other parents that lost children decades ago. They still grieve, still miss them, still hurt. I'm 54 years old and that's what I have to look forward to. Sadness for the rest of my life.
Ok, I'm not known for my
Ok, I'm not known for my subtiliy or tact and I take no prisoners. I think it's time you told him you've had enough of being his dirty little secret and asked him why TF he's ashamed of you. There is NO OTHER REASON for him to keep you hidden away. He treats you like a FWB, why do you put up with this? He's already cheated on you - way to tell you that you're of no importance to him.
I've already told you that you deserve better, so please stop shortchanging yourself. Dump this loser and take your life back.
(((HUGS)))
Not a secret anymore the disrespect and cruelty is in the open
Thank you but let me clear a misunderstanding. I was a secret for the first 1-3 years, depending on who in his life he was sharing the news with. I believe he told his older sister first, about a year and half in.
Then he introduced me to his parents about 2 years in. They are elderly people who don't leave the home and his father has dementia. He coudln't remember me seconds after asking me who I was, which the poor thing did the whole time. He started with them because they were the easiest. His mother adores him and woud accept anyone he brought over and his father doesn't know what's going on.
I met the daughters at his parents house one Father's day which I think was about 3 years in. The oldest didn't even say hello and they both ignored me the entire time.
So the cat's been outta the bag for a while now, everyone is aware I exist, but some people are remaining in denial and refuse to acknowledge or accept my existence. You're right, I deserve better. I brought so much goodness and love into his life and he brought pain and destruction into mine. I helped him lose 50 lbs after he was diagnosed with diabetes. What did he do with his new slim physique? Run around partying hanging out in bars with hoes and cheat on me.
I was stupid to stay and hate myself for the pain I allowed him to cause me and my family. My daughter began to make peace with the fact that I was probably going to die due to a stroke or heart attack because of the high blood pressure and stress he was putting me through.
I told him I do feel like I'm just his mistress or a jumpoff, after all this time, I don't feel I have any say or semblence of equality in this relationship. We share nothing together. No kids, friends, home, bills, not even a netflix account. We have 2 totally separate lives, live in different states, have different friends, interests and he doesn't support me. He takes care of her and when he retires in a year or 2, she's getting half his pension. Recently he had the audacity to tell me it's hard having all the finacial responsibility in this relationship!
I went off on him. You know what he was he talking about? When we go on a trip or out to dinner and he pays the bill. Yep. I couldn't believe he said that to me. I was livid. I reminded him that when we go out to eat, it's ALWAYS HIS suggestion, not mine. He's the one ordering lobster tails and throwing back whiskey. And we go out to eat about once every other month! We go on a trip once a year. The first few trips we went on, I PAID for him to come because I was already taking my family. He didn't offer to and didn't pay for anything other than alcohol on those trips.
He is a single man with adult children, making almost $200k a year and expects me, the struggling single mom, taking care of 4 children on my own, who were still minors and then college students living at home, with no child support from their father, and I'm supposed to pay the bill when YOU suggest we go out to dinner?!!! Expect me to pay my way on a vacation? Most men don't have a problem taking the woman they love on vacation, especially when they can afford to! But that's part of his imaginary "financial responsibility" he claims is hard on him in our relationship.
I told him straight out he has ZERO financial responsiblity with me. Does not pay a single one of my bills and doesn't give me money every month like he has done with her our entire relationship, which now he must've given her around $125K. He didn't even help me when I needed to get another car. Asked me to drive him about 2 hours to south jersey so he can go buy a mercedes truck a guy was selling for $11K. After the test drive, he had me drive him to a bank where he got a cashiers check and drove home happy in his new truck. He had left the withdrawal receipt in my car and I saw that he still had another $10k in there and that's just one account. I asked him for some money because I needed another car due to a lot of issues with it, including a wheel ball bearing that was about to snap that I was unaware of, which was why my car wobbled when I drove and he told me no. Yep, my so called man.
Funny thing, after I broke up with him last January and met someone else, this person gave me $2500 to help me get a car and I did. After we "reconciled" and he found out this other man helped me, he was mad. I do life alone in spite of being in a relationship and that's how he likes it. How can he be mad at someone helping me when he diligently continues to help his wife. She can buy a $400K house with all the money he's giving her and have it paid off in 12 years!
All of his financial problems come from his past. From volunteering to take care of that pet monkey on his back so generously so she "wouldn't have to struggle," (he literally said that to me in an arguement once when I asked why is he voluntarily giving her so much money when there was no order for alimony or support), to taking all of the family's debt and letting his ex and daughters not share any of it. From credit cards, IRS, student loans, he bears it all so she won't ever have to struggle. But he's totally fine watching me struggle AND expects me to chip in when we do things. smh
I come in last place all the time when he has to choose, no actually, I don't place at all because he has never chosen me. He relies on the fact that I'm the better person out of all the people he knows, so he feels its easier dealing with me after disappointing me, but knows there'll be hell to pay from others. So he chooses to shit on the loving sane person - me. I'm not so sane anymore, I'm on the verge of insanity.
This discussion has been very therapuetic for me. I am in therapy twice a week, but it's good to feel validated by people other than your therapist. People who are facing similar challenges who let you know, it's not you, you're not the crazy one, your expectations are reasonable and normal. Talking to him trying to explain how things affect me, makes me feel like I'm spinning my wheels in place, not getting anywhere. Talking to him and dealing with his family situation feels like I'm Alice at the Mad Hatter's tea party. I'm expected to accept things that are abnormal and wrong with loving kindness and grace, while everyone else in this crazy place gets to do what's not right and that is acceptable.
Talking this out has really opened my eyes to my situation being so much worse than I thought. Someone else said they hadn't read one good thing about this shituation, and they're right, because I haven't had one good thing to share. It's hard to see the picture when you're in the frame and the person you're talking to is in the frame too. smh Wow deep doo doo.
He kept you a secret for 3
He kept you a secret for 3 years. I don't see him being respectful of you at all. You don't live together. I'd let him go to the wedding alone, remove any of my belongings from his place and leave whatever he had at my place. Then I'd leave him a "Dear A$$hat" letter and block him.
My deepest sympathy for the loss of your child. {{{HUGS}}}
Agree 100%. Mostly.
The only thing different is I would advise not contacting him at all. Block him completely. Forget about any belongings which may remain at his place. Throw out anything of his at yours. And I would do that NOW ... not wait till the wedding in September.
Imagine he is dead to you, which is what he should be. I hate to tell you but in all honesty, he sounds like a guy that just likes an out-of-town booty call - and you are CLEARLY an intelligent and attractive woman who can do much better.
With sympathy for the loss of your precious son. Do him an honor. Don't let this man steal another minute of YOUR life.
Don't waste a minute of your other childrens' time either, by even talking about this pathetic excuse for a man who has already wasted too many good years of your life.
Luckily, you are not married and don't even live in the same state. It's easy to completely disconnect from him and move forward.
Block him immediately. Nothing, and I mean nothing, material is worth even another minute of your time on this jerk.
Truth
You speak the truth and I can't disagree with anything you've said.
I am angry at myself for allowing him to be such a major distraction from my family the past 6 years. I had no idea that I was going to lose my son during that time. He was 9 when this relationship started. I feel I lost so much time with my family, my son, that was wasted on him while he treated me like an optional accessory in his life. So much pain and regret. I'm all f###ked up now.
Oh, Sweet Lady.....
I am SO sorry to know you lost your precious 15 year old child. I cannot even imagine your heartache and pain. And the addtional pain you are enduring in this very toxic relationship. Much love to you.
Now...this man of yours. I cannot add much more to the excellent advice you've been given except to scream loudly with the rest...TAKE CARE OF YOU!!! This man is NOT available. He's got serious enmeshment issues with his first family and kids and he is NOT bonded with you at all. He's a serial cheater and a heavy drinker. And a gaslighter. And he has your daughter worried about you (and I'm sure your other children). You do NOT deserve to be treated as such.
I have issues with my DHs kids also (all adults). Won't go into detail.....you can search....but I refused to see any of DHs kids for over 6 years. And while there were events he attended without me, I actually was always invited. Sad for DHs kids but he did NOT attend many of those events due to their toxic treatment of me. We are on a slow re-intergration but on my (and therapist's) terms.
I'd let that dude head to the destination wedding and while he's out of the country, get anything you have at his place and RUN as fast as you can. Block him and if he tries to contact you, advise you will seek an RO. There are good men out there.....you know that because you met one during a "break up" period who actually helped you. Again...take care of YOU. Please.
Best to you.
Thank you
Thank you for your kind words. It is really sad that so many people choose to be so spiteful and toxic. It takes so much energy to maintain evil behavior towards others over the span of years. But then again, maybe not to those for whom it's their default mode.
I'm an empath and cared too much about his issues and tried to help him. I waited too long to prioritize and take care of me. I have begun and will continue to. I told him shortly after my son passed that he will never be more important than my family or me, ever again. I have held my ground and will continue to.
Thank you
Don't hold ground...
scortch the hell out of it and burn this b@stard along with it. Start right now. Today. Don't communicate with him any further. He should have ZERO importance to you!
Please, if you are not already in grief counseling try to get signed up for it. Many local Hospice organizations offer group counseling sessions for free. I think you have far too much to deal with emotionally due to the loss of your precious son to be wasting even a second on this a$$hat man.
Focus on yourself, your children and moving forward WITHOUT this ball and chain around your neck. Wishing you all the best...
I'm so sorry...
...for your loss, TheMother5. I can only imagine how difficult the loss of a child is, please take care of yourself and your children.
I have read through this entire thread. I believe other posters have given you sound advice. What I encourage you to do is to look back at your posts and really think about what you have written; as the thread progressed, more and more red flags were revealed about your SO. Sometimes, when we see our words in black and white, we are shocked by the message we see and the clarity it provides. You sound like a kind, rationale woman. Why do you want a SO who has treated you this way? You deserve better. Repeat after me...I DESERVE BETTER!!! Believe it. Love yourself. Make it happen.
Gaining clarity
This discussion has definitely helped me gain clarity. Talking it out with others in similar situations who've gained wisdom through experience, has been very helpful. He has made me feel like I've been the one unreasonable and not understanding of the situation, constantly using the excuse that it's because of the divorce. When he was voluntarily giving her all that money the moment he left, years before a court order, never missing a single month, he kept saying, "that's divorce." I would say, "but you're not divorced, you haven't even filed, there is no order, she hasn't gone to court for support, so you don't owe her anything." He stuck to his guns to support her for life, while barely ever helping me.
He used the excuse of not telling his family or daughters about me because, "it's a divorce, it's too soon." He's using the excuse of continuing to exclude me that for his daughters, "it's too soon, they prob blame you, they don't want you there, I don't want any drama."
The only person who has been paying the price in this toxic situation is me and this isn't my f@#king family!! My family doesn't have these issues and his intergration into my life was normal. My kids ended up not liking him because they watched him breaking my heart and breaking me down, lying, cheating, being disrepectful and just mean.
I have had no voice in this relationship. He gets his way, his daughters get their way, his EW gets her way and I basically get jumped by all of them while they keep trying to play zombie family with a relationship that died long ago. I've suffered a lot of trauma in my life and that caused me to become an empath that cares deeply for others. Unfortunately, it has made me a repeated target of predators, abusers and narcissists.
Since losing my son in January, I lost more of my mental ability to think straight or even think at all, most days. So this support group has been very helpful in regard to this 6 year drama.
Thank you
You...
...are welcome. Like you, I care deeply for others and have dedicated my professional life to taking care of others...mind, body, and soul.
Again, I urge you to take care of you.
I reread the OP and, well, I
I reread the OP and, well, I hate to say it but if he has been keeping you, and your realationship a secret for YEARS I have to ask about that. Generally, when someone meets someone they really want in their lives and to have a real relationship with they want the family to meet them. They don't hide them.
FWIW, and I only use this story because it fits the situation. I once heard someone talk about how she meet her celeb husband. It was at a party and he was there with someone else, which she respected. She was going on business so she suggested she call him when he got back. Okay, the interesting thing here is that the woman said she does that because it is a way to check if there is perhaps a wife etc. That if a man just gives you his business number it tells her that there might be someone in the background; after all this lady had no business dealings with him. This celeb gave her ALL his numbers, from his business to his personal number. They married and at the time had been married some 20 years or so.
Agreed!
Yes, you can tell when someone is 'all in'. They are transparent. They accept the good, the bad, and the ugly...because we all have a little ugly. They want to spend time with you. They want you front and center in their life. They want to introduce you to friends and family. They are proud to have you on their arm. Etc. When you know you know.