Why does this have to be so $%$$#? difficult?
This really isn't a step problem, just a parenting vent so pls forgive me-this is the only place I can vent anonymously.
I'm a nurse. Our hospital is overwhelmed with patients. We're understaffed, overworked, forced into OT altho it's illegal, given patients of the types we've never cared for before and weren't trained to deal with. Our shifts have been changed from 8's to 12's which translates into 13-14hour shifts days and nights rotated. The patients are being housed in clinics where they have to share bathrooms, they can't shower and supplies are limited. And the hospital sends extra nurses to the Covid units where it's even more horrible with all the extra PPE we have to wear for 13-14 hours a day. God, it's awful now.
So I get a text from my college-aged BD and she comes home having a personal crisis. As soon as I got home and walked through the door, I'm got hit with one problem after another from her and other family members. I didn't even have a chance to change clothes. I'm tried to be understanding and tried to be a supportive parent but I was just exhausted, upset and really didn't need what I walked into. I really didn't try to upset my daughter worse but I don't have a poker face and she got more upset because she said I was cold and unresponsive. I was so damned tired and my body hurt after my shift but when I tried to explain myself, it just made things worse bc it made me look self-centered.
So, the end result was that she left crying and went back to college and I'm getting the cold shoulder from her and DH. They just don't understand what is happening at my job and when I try to explain it to them, it really doesn't compute how physically and emotionally draining this whole thing is. I feel awful; I'm almost in tears now bc I'm stressed at my job and now this added to it really weighs on me.
Anyone else out there dealing with this? I feel like everyone else in my house can be upset, irritable, angry, etc but if it shows on me, I get the silent treatment bc I'm being bitchy. Why am I not allowed to be upset once in a while? God, I'm so frustrated.
Any fellow nurses and parents, help! I need some uplifting right now because I feel like crap now