Please help; left out and betrayed
I'm very emotional right now, so please bear with me. BF and I were of the understanding that SS had a special Christmas party at school today. I went shopping and bought him a special outfit and cut his hair. Then later BF found out that it's really after school, in the evening, and HE and the EX are going but I am not invited! Apparently SHE doesn't want me around, and HE won't stand up for me. I spend all my time, my heart and my soul being a part of this family and now I am nobody-- not even allowed to attend special events in support of my son! This feels like such a betrayl-- like he's cheating on me! He is representing himself with HER and ss as his family, while I sit home and think about why I don't register high enough to be included as part of the family that is MY WHOLE WORLD. I feel pathetic, like some silly woman who has to fill a hole in somebody else's family because I can't get my own. I don't know if I can do this anymore.... it hurts so much. What's more, he's teaching ss that I'm not really family because I don't get to be a part of his life the way his bio parents do. We've had a huge fight and all I can do is sit in the car in the parking lot of a coffee shop and cry... and use their wi-fi to whine to you guys.