Don't like who I've become as a step parent
Hello everyone. I've come here to vent and wondering if anyone else can relate. I'm married to my husband who has two children from his previous marriage. I've known his kids since they were very young (2 and 5) and they are now 6 and 9. I've come here to vent as I really do not like who I've become as a step parent. At first I thought things were fine however as the children have gotten older I've become more frustrated and resentful. I do care about his kids but I do not love them as I would my own and I do not like their behaviors. I cannot stand going places with them anymore and the constant whining, complaining and attention seeking that is never addressed. I am sick of paying so much for things, meals here, activities there, for which they show no gratitude for. I'm sick of their rude and cruel comments towards me and others. I'm sick of not being able to just sit down, relax and watch tv in my own home. I feel like I am constantly being judged and wacthed if I am not "motherly" or involved enough. I am sick of being told "play with me" constantly by a 6 year old when I've already played ith her for an hour and am exhausted. I am sick of not being able to hug nor kiss my husband without one of them interferring constantly. I am just sick, sick and tired. I know this is what I signed up for.