Feeling so lonely
I met dh five years ago when we both worked in the Middle East. Two lost souls (I was only 26 yo at the time) and after two years we moved back to our home country. While I had met dh son it was a real shock moving back and having his son around every weekend. For the past few years this has not changed , it is very wearing. Anyway we moved back to dh city which is about 3 hours away from my family. For a while that was ok but now that we have had bs 6 months we want to start putting down roots. The city we live in has such a high cost of living it had been putting huge financial strain on me for the past year (my portion of rent alone is 2/3 of my salary). I'm due back in work shortly which will cost around 1000e for childcare a month which will mean that paying rent, travel and childcare I will have no money left over at all.
Dh did not want to move cities because of ss. Understandable but our money would have stretched so much further even if we had moved an hour away. The cost of living is so much lower. Where my parents live, houses are half of what they cost here and my parents also wished to look after bs while we worked as they are retired. However, dh did not want to live ss and has now taken on a really highly pressurised job. He is NEVER here. I have a couple of friends , one in particular I'm very close to but she is moving abroad this summer.
I just about tolerated living here when dh was around because at least he was home before 7pm, now he lives before we wake up and is home after baby is in bed. I know it's killing him and he is working so hard but he says it's going to be like this for at least 2 years. I'm going to really struggle when I go back to work because I have an hours commute in the traffic. I feel like I'm never going to see my baby all because of where we live. Sorry I'm moaning, I just needed to vent because I'm feeling so so crappy about all of this. It's just so hard to get a foot up in life sometimes. My parents have been visiting for the past 3 days, I'm pmsing and am just feeling emotional as I won't see them for another month.