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Out of options's picture

This happens often, but I will give two examples from this week. The car my husband uses to drive the kids to car in is pretty old, I thought it would be nice to give him the nicer car and drive the older car to work. To my dismay it would not start. My husband drove me to work. He called me two time that day just to talk, he never does that any more.

Five O'clock rolls around and he called to say that we was running a couple of minutes behind. He said that he stopped at the golf pro shop and then suddenly his oldest daughter had to have a new dress for class pictures tommorrow and he would be a couple of minutes late.

Five thirty rolls around and so do they. I occures to me that when I spoke to him at 5 o'clock he was still at the mall. I did not even register as a priortiy. Shopping bags and vendor foods in the car, I decided to ride in the back with my daughter, as his oldest daughter was attempting to get out of the front seat. When I got in I calmly told him, when he spoke me and said "Why are you waiting outside", I do not want to speak to you. I spoke to the kids, which can be difficult at times, and the ride home took forever.

He ignored me for several hours before making two lousy and rude attempts to apologize. He just doesn't get it. I am there for all of them all of the time. Why don't I matter to them? He ignored me for the all of the night and the following day! He didn't speak to me until Thursday, this happened Tuesday.

Yesterday, when things were on the right track he picked up Avatar for me. I really wanted to go the the theater to watch it, but I never had the chance. I was so happy he thought of me. In turn on my way home I picked up a couple of things he needed and grabbed some fishing equipment to brighten up his day. When I got home the movie had been opened like it was family property and tossed in with the other movies. I had to watch my daughter during the movie, becuase at 5 O'clock he is off his shift. I ask if we can turn it off and he complies with attitude.

I shower with my litte girl, she loves it, but it's hard to get out with her. My husband will come and get her and get her dressed. The night before when she was sleeping so soundly, I didn't have the heart to wake her, I asked my husband if he would bathe her, of course he didn't. Once we turned the movie off a show he likes to watch came on, so my kiddo and I waited for it to finish before we hit the shower. He followed us in, and refused to join us, because he said he still had to get her out of the shower. A little more than five minutes later I call for him, nothing. I bang on the wall, nothing. I try it again, nothing.

Our whole house is tiled, I've slipped prego with my little girl balanced in arms once already. I trek it out of the shower get her dried and dressed, she shrilling (playfully) loud enough for anyone to hear, while his is in the living room with his kids. I place her in her crib, turn on the music and finish my shower. He comes into to get her without a word to me.

My youngest step daughter is obviously his favorite. She is rude to him all of the time, and so is his oldest. These two kids are so disresectful. The yougest was rude to him all evening, but the moment she ops to fling him a little attention he hangs me a my daughter out to dry litterally.

I get out, get dressed, grab a bottle, get my kiddo and head off the bed without a word. More than half an hour later he comes in, and say what are you mad about now? Gets into bed, rolls over and sleeps. I pull the laundry from the dryer (home all day, and I still have to do it), fold it up, wait to hear him snoore, check on my girl, turn of the TV, and try to sleep.

I left this morning, kissed my girl and left for work.

What am I doing wrong?

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folkmom's picture

you are not articulating the issues to him. you are being passive aggressive and expecting he just "knows" why you are angry. all this does is build resentment and anger on both sides.

first, while he did not pick you up in a timely manner...you say in front of the kids "i am not speaking to you." that is just rude. would you want a kid to do that? bad modeled behavior. how about actually TELLING him why you are upset.

you were also passive aggressive going to bed. so who loses out? you! you did not get to see the movie. in effect you threw a grown up tantrum. now. he is wrong..but you are communicating your frustrations very poorly. and so...the cycle will remain the same.

HennyPen's picture

Agreed Folkmom, he can't address the real issue if he doesn't know what it is. Sometimes we expect people to be able to figure out what they did wrong and it just adds to the frustration. you need to sit down and just TELL him what is wrong. HOW it makes you feel and WHY. you can't start if you don't have a starting line.

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