How do you deal with the anxiety of being a stepparent?
I wrote my first post a few days ago and I want to thank all the people that answered me.
I wanted to know if anybody has some tips regarding self-care while being a stepparent. Since SS4 came to live with us full time about 4 months ago, my mental health has been declining, as well as the relationship with my DH. Me and DH were in a bad moment when SS came here, and having him here made the situation worst. After many discussions, we agreed that we would try to make our relationship work, starting a new page.
The problem is that with COVID and everything that came with it, I am in the house, without working and only taking a few college classes online. We also live in a remote area with nothing to do. This gives me a lot of time to over think and increased my anxiety to the point where I constantly have migraines and I sleep too much or too little. I get so anxious whenever I have to pick up SS from the babysitter, because I know that I have hours alone left with SS before DH comes back, where I won't have much freedom. I don't enjoy my time with DH anymore, because SS is always with us (I also wrote a post a few days ago about SS being very clingy). I feel detached from DH and the only times where I feel good is when I'm at the gym, reading a book or being productive with my online school. The rest gives me too much anxiety.
BM came back from nowhere yesterday saying that she wants to come visit SS, and this is increasing my anxiety too. I know I should be detached from it, that is none of my problem. I keep telling myself that these are not my problems, but that I should try and fix my relationship with DH, care more about SS, but part of me is resisting, part of me doesn't even want to try. Part of me thinks "this is not what I expected my life to be". A big part of me regrets my choice of becoming a wife and a stepmother so young.
Am I the only one feeling like this?...