So I just recently had a missed miscarriage the first couple days were horrible and then I started to think “everything happens for a reason” and in a way I was glad I got to experience something like that with my fiancé cuz we were able to grieve together and it brought us closer but now the step kids are coming today and I can only be sad. Why did I have to have a miscarriage with a man I love and a baby we planned yet him and his ex had a kid from a one night stand and we’re able to have two more kids that weren’t planned. I know that’s a horrible thing to say but why couldn’t she of had a miscarriage instead of me:( don’t judge me for feeling glad I got to experience something like this with my fiancé. No I’m not glad I had a miscarriage but I am glad we were able to be there for each other and see how much we truly love each other through a dark time. Nothing wrong with that everyone is different! It was a learning experience and has change me helped me to be more understanding and see that someone’s things just happen out of your control. When I’m pregnant with a healthy baby we will be even more excited to have our special rainbow baby after what happened.