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Seriously!? Am I so wrong?!

discfocused's picture

So I am engaged to my fiancee and ever since I met him, my life has been focused on him and his kids. I set up their rooms, bought their clothes, play with them, take them to do fun things and anything else I can do to make them feel at home when they are with us. I have put up with plenty of BS over the years because he would not be responsible or stand up to BM. He has grown up a lot too. So during the years I have been working full time (at one point 3 jobs) and going to school full time. From Feb-May I am student teaching to get my bachelors in elementary education and told him I really needed his support financially and emotionally. Our relationship and lives have NEVER been focused on my needs compared to his and his kids so I asked him for it just during these few months.

Well I have been student teaching, and still finishing up school and stressed. I still take care of his kids. I am their primary caregiver when they are there. Even if he is there, they are so used to me that they come to me when they need something or want to play. I found out 2 weeks ago I still had a huge Praxis test I needed to take which is a HUGE test and I can not get certified without it. Not to mention it is expensive and with me not getting paid, he has to be covering all the bills.

My problem started when his friend J got a motorcycle. My DF had one before but had to sell it when he hit financial problems. But since his friend had one again, he absolutely HAD to get one too. FOr a week and a half, thats all he focused on. Looking at ads and online for a new bike. I told him if he wanted one, I was fine with that, but now was really not an appropriate time and we also had a wedding coming up to pay for. Well he went ahead and bought an older bike anyways for $300 that ran but needed a paint job. Still, I didnt say much, I knew he wanted it but by the time he got it, he was so obsessed that I had hardly seen him at all for a week. He was always out helping friends with stuff or looking for a bike.

Then when he got the bike, he was obsessed with fixing it up and spending money on it. Then when his kids were there for the weekend, he spent the whole day on Saturday working on it while they kids kept coming to me for stuff (while I was trying to study). SO night time came and he tells me he is going to go up to the bar to have a few drinks and help his buddy run his karaoke machine do-dad. He has done this the several past Saturdays.

Well he went and my pissed off messages followed. It was the final straw. He he got made saying I was overreacting and it was crap that I had a problem that he wanted to go out for a few drinks when he has to work "so hard" right now. I guess I am just a lazy unwed fucking housewife who sits on her ass all day. He went out and I am sitting at home trying to study while his kids are there! He still does not think he is wrong and has still been obsessed with buying stuff for his bike, our bills are now overdue and he still is gone almost every night doing something to help his friends or working on his bike.
Am I the wrong one here?!

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discfocused's picture

Not to mention, during this time I asked him for 2 weeks to dye my hair so I didnt have to pay the hair place $80 for it and he kept saying, you dont need it, you dont need it. But when a friend called and needed him to drive 2 hours away to look at a bike he wanted to buy, he went with him after admitting a bike was the last thing he needed because he was broke as well.

discfocused's picture

Oh trust me. THat is SOOOO the point I am at... Not putting it on hold though... Calling the whole thing off and leaving his ass. I have NEVER been so pissed. I could write a book on the crap from him I had to put up with in the first few years of our relationship; and to now experience this. I asked for 3 months, for things to be focused on me. 3 MONTHS! and he could not do it! And it pisses me off even more because he thinks there is nothing wrong with what he has done. I am waiting till I am done student teaching to actually decide because I want to be in a calm stress free state of mind to make that decision. I am just so stressed out and hurt right now and I cant stand the sight of him. Everything I have done for him and for his kids that I owe NOTHING to and that's what I get. I dont even want to be in the same house as him right now.

discfocused's picture

I have a bad habit of doing too much for people and I often get taken advantage of because of it. I enjoy making other people happy and doing things for them but it always seems to backfire on me. It impossible to be like that and not be treated respectfully I guess which makes me mad because I cant be who I want to be.

discfocused's picture

I am just so insulted by it! I dont care that he got the bike. Its just for once I wanted things to be about me during a hard time for me. I have worked so hard for what I want. I got my stole of gratitude and your supposed to give it to someone who has helped you through your education and I feel like I have no one to give it to and that really depresses me that I dont have someone there for me when I need it. My parents are too obsessed with my drug addicted brother and my fiancee needed a bike!

Helena.Handbasket's picture

OMG. Stop that thinking right now! You are not wrong. Tell him if he wants to "get a few drinks" with his friends, he'd better find a babysitter next time. You aren't his live in nanny.

Next, you put yourself in this position by making your life about his kids too. Now you stop that. We've all made that mistake at one time or another and have had to correct it. Lesson learned for you. Next weekend he has the kids, you need to go somewhere else, make plans with friends or something. But don't be available for him to drop the kids off on you.

Take responsibility for your role in this. You can't change him, but you can change how you let him treat you.