Update on SS15 wants to kill me and family
If anyone wants the whole low down they can read my last blog post.
So many of you have really helped me stay strong on this point, but I TOTALLY feel like DH is bullying me to let SS15 psycho back into the house after he wrote in a journal that he contemplates my murder and is thinking about planning the murder of his family! (Don't worry, I will take the bios and move before that happens). We will go to bed and I think he understands that I am not going to waver on this, then he spends the day with a bunch of guys that work FOR him and tell him that I'm so mean to kick a kid out. When I come home from work he is armed with all kinds of crap to yell at me about until I put my foot down.
SS15 is with BM right now and she is already on a roll with it attacking me and telling DH all of the mistakes I have made. I feel like this is such a crap show. DH says to me tonight that I never actually let him raise SS15 the way HE wanted to and that I always interfered. I told him that he gladly let me be the main parent because he checks out and doesn't spend time with SS15.
I asked DH if SS15 has even apologized for writing threats against the family, he says, "I haven't even had a chance to talk with him." Really? It's been a freaking week? Why are you fighting to get a kid in here that you haven't even taken to dinner or called for crying out loud?? They texted today and SS15 feels like he really just needs to cool off. REALLY???? How nice that HE gets to make that choice, but I DON'T!!! I'm getting screamed at in the kitchen for having grounded SS15 from video games his whole life. Like this is MY fault.
So a kid you haven't even seen or talked to in a week (except random texts) hasn't even asked to come home and hasn't apologized. What is DH fighting for. Oh and the cherry on top (some of you are going to flip on this) is that DH is telling me that SS15 can stay at his friend's (DH's bachelor friend who has always been around) when he's not at his mom's because that's where he would like to live. That's where I want to live instead of here with DH, how about that???
So SS15 gets to "cool off" from me (like I ever want him back anyway), and he gets to go away from BM (because even though she's a psycho she might make him do his homework), and I'm a b**tch because I say that that sounds pretty irresponsible. I'm about to call social services on my husband at this point. SS15 has a counseling appointment tomorrow, which I doubt anyone will get him to.
If this was a week ago, I would be bawling my eyes out, but I'm just really mad that this seems like it is going to end my marriage. DH storms out the door and drives off and it's like this is his breaking point. Days before I found the OPEN JOURNAL to the page of death threats, DH and I were all in lovey dovey town. He's turning off his emotions to me and I care about that, but MY kids and I are important too.