The flu hit us hard for the holidays. DH, SS12 & I were laid up for days & still recovering.

DH slept with SS12 when they were sick to try to contain it but I still got it. While DH was in bed with SS12 and they were both dying, SD decided she was going to scream at him because she wanted something. I dont think she understood or cared how sick they were. I had to save him. I walked in the room and ignored her and asked him if he needed anything. He said no. She sometimes stops when Im around bcuz she's embarrassed of her behavior but she was on a rampage. DH told her to leave the room, she wouldnt, so he finally told her she's not getting her license the next day as she was supposed to. Good for you DH. So now the bitch doesn't have her license and Im getting rid of my son's old car that was supposed to be for her. I flew to my son's to pick it up and drive it 12 hours home but Im the bitch.

After the news of no license obviously things got bad. She screamed at him that he only cares about himself and "her"...thats her name for me. I told her to give it a rest and she told me I should just leave and things were fine while I was gone for a few days. She said she wants to move out and I told her no one is stopping her. I usually dont speak to her like this but yes Ive had it. So then she calls BM and says how I told her to move out blah blah blah. She's a liar. At least BM backs me up. She knows her daughter is an entitled asshole and that's why BM ditched the kids to be with her husband. She doesnt want her marraige destroyed so she backs me up so we keep the little bitch.

I packed to leave but DH begged me to stay. I did but I left in the morning til BM came to get SD16. Then i got sick. Ugh. BM brought SD back and now we have 3 sick people. SD decides its time to start again. She said she was going to kill herself so I told DH if he didn't call BM to pick her up I was going to a hotel as I couldnt show up at my parents house with the flu. I wasnt going to listen to this. When I told DH BM had to come or she needed to be hospitalized for her threats of suicide, she's scaring me and she acting nuts...she turned that into "I have to live with someone who calls me psycho and mental". Never were those words said.

I went outside in the snow and wind with a fever of 101 waiting for the child to get picked up. I had my bag packed but again DH begged me not to leave. I sat outside til 10pm freeeezing, sore throat, cough, fever. I finally left. Got 2 mins from the hotel and he begged me to come back and talk. SD had calmed down and was ready to talk. All she did was insult me, lie and give everyone her poor me story. I told her to shut up several times. Im done. She's a lying, manipulator. I literally screamed at her SHUT UP.

The drama went on for hours but BM took her for a couple days. I saw SS10 texts to his mom saying are you coming? She's going to kill herself. Mom im scared. These poor kids. No wonder theyre f##ked up.

So if I wasnt sick, i wouldnt be here. I need a break from all this. I told DH in front of SD that we made a mistake. Never should have got married. The kids werent ready....the reason princess hates me is she misses her dad. Ya know the one who gave her everything and never said no. I nver did anything to her and she admits that but she said I changed her dad. Well sorry bitch. He's parenting.

Happy new year to all the step parents out there!