I have 2 SK one SS10 and one SD7 that we have all of the time. My H and I also have an almost 2 yr old BD and one on the way. BM is nuts. I am only 24. It's so great to see that other people are in situations similar to mine and understand how I feel! None of my friends/family get it. They just say "Hang in there." or that I have to get over it. It's so emotionally and mentally exhausting and I suffer from severe depression. The SKids aren't so bad but just everything to go with it really gets to me! Don't get me wrong, in the beginning my SS was a terror but he soon realized I am a no BS kinda girl and he has since done very well. My main problem is my H. We don't agree on rules, discipline, schedules really we don't agree on anything. The sad thing is that I was first attracted to him because he did have full custody of the kids and I saw that as him being a wonderful loving and responsible man. Which he mostly is. I just didn't understand what that meant for us as a couple!! I don't see our marriage working out for too many more years. I'm sticking it for now but it is so tough. I know I can never remarry because I now have my own 2 and we would be in the same boat different family! I have no problem with that thought at all. I would be perfectly happy being single until my children are full grown. I say that now and hope that feeling will never change.