I haven't posted in a while....it just feels like it's one thing after another. Like my husband doesn't know how to be in a marriage!! BM doesn't want me involved with HER kids at all, even removed me from their emergency contact list at school. (Which doesn't bother me because it'll be her problem if she needs someone to get them for her) What does bother me is DH actions make me feel like he is backing BM on that. I am never kept up to date about SKs lives, sports, school....nothing. I'm completely left in the dark on everything about his kids. It's made me distant and he had the nerve to throw in my face that I'M alienating SD from me....no, I'm not doing that, I'm doing exactly what he and BM want and that's not engage with their children. Another thing is almost 2 months ago DH told BM to stop contacting him and that the kids are old enough to make the visit arrangements etc....because she has caused so much hell and threatened us so much. He told me the other day he hasn't heard a peep from BM, well I guess he thinks I'm a dumbass because I see the cell phone bill, she's messaging him and he's replying back. I checked his phone while he was in the shower and took pictures of the texts and I'm waiting for him to comment on this again before I say anything. He's always lying to me....ALL THE FREAKING TIME. I'm so sick of it. Counseling did NOTHING....at all. I feel like with all the turmoil we have been through in the last 3 years that this is it...this is all I'm worth...a marriage with a lying, deceiving bullshitter.