Being new to blogging on this site, I'm not sure where to start... Ok here goes. Sometimes I hate myself. Can anyone relate? I'm embarrassed by my past and don't want to live there, but it keeps seeping into my present. I've been married and divorced 3 times. I'm in my 4th marriage by almost 6 years. 2 children from my first which lasted 5 years. No children from my 2nd marriage which lasted only 2 years. 2 children from my 3rd which lasted 14 years. My husband was married just once before that lasted 5 years and has one daughter, age 22. His divorce was 16 years ago. We are in our 50s. My parents are deceased and his recently passed. Most of my husbands family hates me for reasons i have stated and for others stemming from their own family secrets (incest). They continually try to break us up. We handle it pretty well by staying away from them, but... This often times puts his daughter in the middle. His family and daughter say that Im making him choose. My husband calls his weekly and tries to make plans for dinner or something, but she's always too busy, and its usually because she's with "the family" - cousins, aunts & uncles and her mom. So how this plays out is that he/we only see her is we go to family events where I am the brunt of their abuse. They shun me, insult me, laugh at me... She recently has begun to go along with their stunts. I'm not sure how much she knows about the incest in the family's past. My husband will not talk to her specifically about the the hurtful things she has taken part of, but will say things such as "being around certain people make (him) uncomfortable". She has no response. End of conversation. He admits that he doesn't want to push her away and expects be to be understanding. Sometimes I am, and sometimes not. Here's the BOTTOM LINE. A wife is a wife, a daughter is a daughter. There is no choice to be made. Your thoughts???