The kids leave tomorrow. DH took the day off work to drop them off at the hotel where BM and her BF will be staying for the next two days. I guess they want to see this place for a vacation or something.

"Make sure your wife doesn't pack too much. She always does and I am always afraid of going over the weight limit." - the text to DH today.
FIrst off, they will be gone for three months and she says she will buy them clothes but never does. Second, I am not a moron. I weigh the bags and give ten pounds of space just in case. And third, even though DH drops them at the hotel, he sees them off at the airport just in case something is wrong - like an overpacked bag.

It's petty. I am not really blogging about this comment - I don't want them to go. I love being with DH and having some breathing room but I would give it all up for SS9 to have peace.

I truly believe this woman is trying to be a better mother, BUT she is blind to what she does to the kids when she has them. You can tell her until you are blue in the face but she doesn't get it. I can only say it is her lack of a good role model. Her parents try to brainwash (I think they are just seriously devout Christians nothing bizarre) the boys into religion - we celebrated Hanukkah last year for Christmas time because we try to do something different each year (yeah, I have no clue how to do Kwanza) and they are really well rounded for being boys, IMO. On a side note, in 2008, I was deployed and DH celebrated Eid so they would know what Muslims celebrate and what I was experiencing. This year SS11 had a muslim kid in his class and while others made fun of him, SS11 made him his friend. "They don't get to eat much around December so can I pack two lunches please? I don't think his mom and dad will get mad at him."

Anyway, I just feel apprehensive and out of control. I am a pretty controlling person and being a stepparent has taught me to let go more than any other experience in my life. BUT DAMN IT! It is so hard.

I just needed to get my feelings out in a blog.