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Stupid's picture

Been buniss with planning. My birth mother is in the last stages of colon cancer. Her liver is 95%covered. Been thinking of what I would want. I would want to be taken a round the world in taste. I love FOOD the texture the flavor the spice. I am flying to meet my 1/2 sister and mother and think I will deal with the food and other side. That is what I know best. Here all about the sinsaysion and the other side? About what we planned there. Are you ok with where you are. It is nothing but "are" YOU ok with what you did. I am crying to much to go for now type later.

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Hatecopycats's picture

I'm so sorry about your birth mother. I'm sorry you are going through such a heartbreaking, difficult time. HUGS

Most Evil's picture

Oh my honey, that is a lot to deal with!! I hope you are able to connect with her in a meaningful way. I will pray that you find peace in this situation. (((((((((((Stupid)))))))))))

Stupid's picture

Got call from 1/2 sister that going fast. Canceled flight and though some clothes in truck. DH came with. Drove to slow! Kicked to passenger seat and made a 16 hour trip in 12 1/2. She never was really aware from the time I got there. I Had to give meds and care for her. 12 days later. In the end I was there and cleaned her and dressed her in the tradition of the tribe. She wanted that. It was so hard to do that. Never thought I would be the one to do that. I know that my 1/2 sister will take everything and all. I am ok with that. Wasn't raised with them. My BFather is coming to stay with me and I will take care of him as best as I can. I do what I need to be clear consciences on my side. When I get home I know that I did what I should have. My only hope is I can have some good memories of him. He had a stroke 2 days after my BM passed away. Ladies don't take this the wrong way but I do this out of very selfish reason. I want to be the one to help him in the end. I believe that unless you face your life before you end it you have no hope of peace. I know he loved my BM and all his kids. I want his passing to be peaceful. I guess all that stuff my adopted parents drilled in me about the tribal ways did sink in.

Stupid's picture

TO HOSPICE!!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! You never stop us form doing what we needed to do and you where ther for my BM.