Feeling Bad for Not Feeling Worse
Often I'll think to myself what a terrible person I am because I can't empathize with BF/Mr. Kate's closeness with his daughter. Today is one of those days.
Mr. Kate is trying to get custody of FSD10 because he thinks BM and her husband (a soon-to-be-released convicted felon) may be about to move away with FSD. Knowing as little as I do about child custody cases, I thought (but did not tell him) this was a long shot, because Mr. Kate doesn't have a squeaky clean legal record, either. He is counting on her not having the funds to drag this out and the fact that she can't really support FSD without help from her parents-I think he's being a bit too optimistic.
BM showed up to court and said he shouldn't have any rights because theres no proof he is the father. She had cheated on him several times while they were together. I'm feeling pretty awful that I'm already envisioning my life with him without -or with less of- FSD in it.
Having no kids myself, I don't think I can know what this ordeal feels like for him, and I feel guilty for these little glimmers of hope I feel instead of his pain.