I decided to make an account because I need someone to vent to that doesnt just automatically dismiss my feelings and try to make the conversation about the kid's feelings.
I have a stepdaughter who's been very difficult and unaccepting of me and my children from the beginning. That's gotten better (after 3 years of marriage). I wouldn't say she loves us but shes not openly hostile anymore.
So in the beginning she wasnt around as much. I thought she was kind of annoying, probably a little more than an average kid but still thought well, shes just a kid and lots of kids can come across as annoying. I figured if i spent time bonding with her I'd come to love her the same as my own. After all, my own kids can be annoying at times too and I still love them, right?
Well, that's never happened. Since then I've had another child so naturally have a younger child again takes up alot of time and energy. Also, SD is now here 50% of the time. So I'm around her way more than I used to be and I'm just going insane. The weekends were fine before, but now that it's an entire week by the end of the week I'm just ready to lose my mind. I feel like I have less tolerance for her instead of more. I'm a very quiet, introverted person and shes very loud and attention seeking and it takes so much willpower for me to be around her without acting annoyed that I just feel completely drained after a couple days of it. I dont even know what else to do. Obviously she lives here and has the right to be here and I dont want to act mean or show annoyance with her. But I'm starting to feel completely miserable and dread her being around because it's so emotionally exhausting.