told me last night that they loved me. I almost cried. Their mother is such a bitch that it is so hard for me not treat them how i feel about their mother. They live with their grandparents b/c BM's BF father told her that her and her kids can not live with them. So she took SKIDS back to live with her mother. I see them more than she do. I would love to treat these kids like my own but some part of me is holding back b/c BM is quick to tell me that i am not their mother. She is a sorry piece of shit. In some way i feel sorry for them b/c they are not able to do anything that normal kids do b/c STBH works a lot their GPs don't do anything that is not church related, and BM is sorry. I would love to sign them up for extracurricular activities but they are not mine and i just can't do more for them than their own mother will. I already feel unappreciated, but last night did make me feel good b/c it made me see that MAYBE they see that I am not what BM says I am.