SO birthday is next week. And three of our kids birthdays are this week. We planned to have one big party on the 4th of July. My brother is on his way from Cali (we have only seen eachother a handful of times)on Wednesday so we were going to go pick him up from the airport then head up for the birthdays. SO tells me well SD17 is going to be invited so if you want you can go to your families while we are over at our property... (the party is in the mountains and my parents live about a mile from where his parents cabin is) I said um NO we will do what we planned then ALL of us will go to my parents. He said nothing. Then tonight I (after fuming about this because if you have read my blogs you know that his children have NEVER met my parents and it's going on TWO years) said to him you know I'll just go get my brother and you just go do what you need to with your family. His reply:

Well we will just see after tomorrow (which is his face to face with SD17). Insert tears here. I am at a loss of words. Last year he moved to his parents the entire summer with the kids. And I didn't see him at all on his birthday. I'm not doing this again. This whole seperate family bullshit. WHY can we not SEE both families in one day? Seriously? And I'm suppose to sit here and wait to see how his words go with SD17 tomorrow to know if I am driving to the airport alone or not and if we are doing an OUR family thing on the 4th or if it's a his family for him and mine for me........

Every time I feel we are moving forward I feel like I get kicked about fifty steps backwards.

I feel sick to my stomach and i'm so ANGRY at him.......