Oh and BTW he also took my wedding rings, the keys to the house and told me that I should be grateful that he lets me live here and doesn't kick me out into the cold.

Thank you both for such helpful comments. I thought he could just kick me out and tho I am not a wimp it is scaring me a bit...as for the 'couple thing' I agree. He just came back here and told me we could get a divorce for 149.00 if we didn't contest anything, but then when I asked him for money again to move he said no way. I told him that I didn't get here alone and he should take part of the responsibility of helping me leave..all he said was 'I'll get a truck and load your shit up, thats my part".

I can't even cry.....too shocked to do so and the last time he saw me cry he made fun of me. Not this time.

Goodbyenormajearn...there is nothing in the divorce papers. We've only been married 6 months. I hope you guys are right about him not being able to kick me out. I don't have anyone to borrow money from as I just borrowed 6000 from my mom for dental work. I'd be too embarrassed to ask for anything more and she is retired...

I will find out if I have the job I applied for last week sometime this week, but it will still take a little time....7 days ago he was telling me how much he loved me and needed me and then when I asked if we could have a weekend alone....the shit hit the fan.

Thank you guys for reading and responding. I can't let him see I'm on here as he has threatened to cut off the internet and electricity if I 'get smart with him again'.

My family/friends live out of state, but I am sitting here thinking of ways to get myself out of this. I know I could leave my belongings and that my life is more important than 'things' I just hate to lose everything I own...its all I have left.

I'm in the only room of the renovated house that is done. They are in the apartment. I'm just trying to lay low and maybe he will forget I am here. And Whimsey6...you are right, he knows that I know that his behavior towards he daughter is not healthy and I am a threat to that. He went to therapy a few times and did better but then he quit and has gone right back to 'his norm'...which is not normal at all. I will get out of here this weeks, somehow, someway, with or without my things.

He has a look on his face today that has really made me nervous and has tried to physically block me from coming back into the house when I went out to smoke. If he puts one more hand on me I will call the police.....which I found paperwork upstairs that he was put in jail twice for domestic violence on his ex wife. I just found this 3 days ago and I did NOT dare to confront him about it.

He hid a lot of this very well until we married then slowly but surely he showed just how ugly a human being he is.

He just came in a few minutes ago and stood there looking at me for about 10 minutes...we didn't say a word. Then he bent down and kissed me on my face....I just set there as to not upset him. He then walked out and came back a few minutes later...he is taking his daughter back in a few minutes and had the nerve to say...'are you going to have dinner with me tonight' and I said no, but thank you. He says 'so you just want me to leave you alone back here' and I said 'yes, thats what you do every weekend and I don't mean it mean, but I'm not going to be a Mon-Thurs wife'. I just want out. He turned around and walked out.

Thank you all for being concerned for SD and myself. You don't even know me.....thank you!!

BTW...BM is a nut case also...she doesn't like me around at all and even told DH that SD came home with a headache a couple of weeks ago and BM told him she thought I tried to poison her. We ate the same thing and even cooked it together....it never stops.

He left about an hour ago to take the kiddie back so I have been snooping to see what I could find. He has a couple of money jars with about 600 hundred bucks in them. I guess I can wait for him to leave for work one day this week and take the money and run. He took my rings so all is fair in love and war I guess. I have people who are willing to help me move my things...just need to make sure I have enough cash to rent a truck/storage...other than that I would rather live on the street then to deal with him and his sickness any longer.

I have gotten such good advice from you guys and I will call some of these places tomorrow and see what they can do to help.

A big THANKS!!

Some of you will think I'm crazy, but others will understand. He came in here and asked me if I wanted to talk...I said yes and this is what I want to talk to you about.

Me: I have called the police and told them that you were throwing my stuff out in the yard, threatening me, trying to kick me out, and have been in jail twice for domestic violence in the past. I told him that the cop said that he can't throw you or your stuff out. If he does it again call, and I don't care who he is i'll take his ass straight to jail for the 3rd time' I also told DH that I called CPS and asked questions about him sleeping with his daughter until I threw a fit and drinking and driving every weekend while she was in the car (his BM is moving to Oregon in a couple of months and he is worried about the visitation anyway), and I told him that I would contact BM and testify against him if I needed to. I added a few more hateful ass remarks as I am tired of him controlling me and being a bully.

DH just set there and stared at me, not believing what he was hearing and said...'I'll give you the 800 to move...I don't want any problems with my child'.

I then told him that he was a pathetic excuse for a husband and a father and that I hated him and was glad that the SD was moving away with the BM and her new hubby because maybe the new step dad would set boundaries and show SD a healthy father-daughter relationship so she would grow up healthy. I said quite a few more very mean, but true things and DH tucked his little bully tail...after I said 'now get the fuck out of my room and don't come back'.

OMG...that felt so good. I'm trying to find some local guys to help me move and of course I'll rent a truck. I feel alive again for the first time in 6 months. I took a gamble and thank God this time it paid off. I don't know why I didn't think of this sooner...there is nothing he would not do to be with SD (and not because she is his daughter). Thanks again!!!

OMG stepdown...I hope he doesn't he is loving her to emotional death. I hate that I can't 'save' her, but I will call CPS even though I told him I wouldn't. Hell he's lied to me enough and she needs someone to protect her. I'm happy for me, but sad for her. What makes people this way? I'm not perfect but I can't wrap my head around it...at all.

A little update....so we do not see/talk to each other after our confrontation lastnight. He was gone for work when I got up this morning (or so I thought)...he shows up and is sneaking around the house...I know he is up to something. Then I see him loading things into his truck including a huge money jar that he has.

Then it hit me....he is going to leave and not give me the money like he had said he would...I went out there and confronted him and of course he lied saying 'I was just going to go cash in all this change and give you cash instead....I didn't see the need to touch my account when I had all this change here'. I said I don't mind change mister....don't worry about me I'll take it just the way it is' I guess he felt like he had been busted so he gave in....this is the KICKER....

I'm on the ground like a piece of trash counting out quarters, dimes, nickels and pennies and he starts trying to have sex with me. I couldn't believe it!!!! It was disgusting and so is he. Then when I thought it couldn't get any worse....he said 'you've been a whore since you were 12 (because I had been molested) and then I told him 'no I was eight' (I was really in shock) and then he asked 'did they do you at the same time"? and I had tears by then and I said w'hy would you want to know that so you could fantasize about it later'? His reply 'no, just because your sick'.

It took him forever to leave and he kept taking more and more stuff to his truck..and saying 'your not going to tear my stuff up are you'? I was like...no I don't want that kind of behavior from either of us. Well later I found my good sunglasses smashed...more stuff missing. In other words he was paranoid because of the stealing/destroying that he had done. I called and the cops came out and took a report...they can't do anything as its joint property. Ain't that the shit?

The move is setup for Thursday, but I told him it was for Friday as I don't want him here....watching...gloating, ya know? Another ME ME ME...sorry, but this sucks!!

Stepdown you are so sweet and supportive....Delilah you are naughty and supportive, lol thank you both so much. I just have to make it the next two full days and though he said he would be back Friday he also made a comment that he might need to drop by and pick up a few things tomorrow. I soooo hope he doesn't. If he isn't here during the move...I do have a few small tricks up my sleeve, but I love the one about the tv cord so thats a done deal if at all possible. I hate stooping to that level, but no tv this weekend will be hard for him and unfortuately the SD.

Do I cut it up far to the tv so he can't repair it?

I know you right and I won't do anything but I sure enjoy thinking about it...plus I'm the type that would feel guilty afterwards. So I really wouldn't be 'winning' anything.

That guy was a jerk......and I'm glad the men at the shelter were will clothed, lol.

I like the 'karma' thing better than revenge I think. All the fun and non of the guilt. I truly believe he will get his and though I like my SD I also like the fact that when she and BM move out of state in a couple of months he will go mad!! Oh well.....wouldn't take much.

How are you doing?