Yeah, I don't worry about things like that 'cuz Bitchie a) can't use a computer, b) doesn't have Internet access c) can barely read AND ... She isn't smart enough to think to look for a site like this.

So, I'm cool.

I was gonna say that too about my BM but ...well y'all are making me paranoid!!! lol

I worry about it and delete. But I've always done that not just lately. And I've been more detailed in my posts lately.

The day I give three quarters of a shit about what BM thinks is the day that pigs fly. I could give a crap and a half less what she thinks or has to say about any and all of the following; Me, My parenting techniques, My life, My personality, My looks, FDH and My relationship, and what I think about her. She is such a classy lady that I already know plenty of times over what she thinks of all the above. Therefore I can't be bothered with worrying about anything other than my relationships with FDH and Skids. The only reason I would censor or delete these is if I felt there was a danger in my skids seeing what I wrote. Not because I am ashamed, but because I feel that my thoughts and feelings on the situation are very uncensored and have no need for child eyes. Plus I try my hardest to use this site to vent my thoughts and frustrations but be the bigger person in everyday life. I can express my petty feelings here and behave civily IRL. That's what this is all about right? Either way I have a really hard time taking opinions and criticisms about my thoughts and beliefs from someone who has earned no respect from me. I can't take a hypocrite and lesser person seriously. And BM is just that. A lesser person and a hypocrite. Maybe not to her kids. But the rest of us know.

It is a place to vent it's like a diary and like the situation with FORMERAAGIRL and her identity being found out and it being threatened to be used against her in a court of law seems silly, there is no such thing as thought crime yet is there? It sucks that people aren't feeling comfortable in their own thoughts anymore.

DH has seen my blog and SIL1 saw it in my bookmarks when I was letting her look at my phone. I even put what city I live in (which is small compared to others). I've stated my first name in a response to someone's blog and I've also said I go to a community college and what DH does for a living....so if or when someone does pull me out of the closet, no big deal.

The Orc is a pig and she already knows I think that.

I am concered about privacy and mostly because SS12 is always trying to see whats on my computer screen. The other day, I had steptalk open when he wasnt in the room. He came in and so i scolled down so that the banner name Steptalk could not be seen and then minimised the tab. But he still then came out with 'oh Steptalk' - scary. he doesnt have access to his own computer but im worried he will say something infront of BM or SD17 (who hates us). The BM cant read or speak English very well at all but SD and SS can reasonably well.

Thats my reason

I delete mine because I know that BM loves to frequent forums and I could see her finding me on here. It's sad that I can't feel more comfortable to vent. I always feel like I have to be super vague and change information. Dh knows I come here and thinks that it's great. My skids are young and can't read, so it's just BM that I worry about. She would make my life a living hell if she found out I was here.

I've only recently been paranoid. BM has never had any reason to search online, until now. I could care less what she thinks, I would just hate if she found anything I've said and used it against DH in court. I'm not sure there is or will be anything that she could use, but it's still reason enough to be concerned, or aware rather.

Also, I have no doubt that if she did find my blogs, she would show the skids every single one of them in order to show them how their Evil SM is attacking their poor pitiful BM. I do value my relationship with my skids, and it would hurt if they turned against me because of BM.

Yes. For some reason BM and her Mother go through periods where they actually stalk me. At one point, when the skids were younger they actually hired a professional to get 'something' on ME!

I try to keep my internet foot print small now.

I had to change my identity on this site b/c GG came dangerously close to breeching it. He practically put me through a wall b/c he found out I had been EMAILING a fellow Stalker about StepHELL.

I wouldn't care if BM knows exactly what a piece of shit I know she is. DH has told me more than I need to know about her. How she slept with teachers in high school, had ONSs, affairs during marriage, etc. Long affair with heroin addict that she married. Tossed out her kids to the streets as teens so she could move the heroin addict in (who else would sleep with a warthog). Much of this stuff is ten or twenty years old and she is the member now of a very, very conservative church.

I know the stuff is true - DH will defend her to the nth degree. He thinks she is a good woman - these are just little tidbits I have gleaned over the years in conversation. But I could SO trash her at her church and job if I so wanted (in a very passive aggressive manner) - like "isn't is so nice she cleaned up her act and went from being whore of the world to the church lady."

But that is not me. I don't feel the need to do crap like that. I may bitch here. Plus I happen to know that she is NOT now the upstanding church lady. Still trying to get DH to meet her alone when her DH is gone. The youngest kid is 24. She is still a whore who can't keep her legs shut - she just does a better job of hiding it now. So I bitch here and do NOT spread rumors about her at her job or church or in the community. Helps me get it out without me being a bitch in public.

I HOPE BM finds me on here and knows exactly what a POS mother I think she is. However, that would require her to put down the wine bottle for five minutes to figure out how to use the internets.