You know that disgust feeling you get deep inside, well of coarse you do because you're here on step talk. Well I got that disgust feeling deep inside a long time ago when BM came into my home and asked my DH about information on his trade because she wanted to make a change in her life. After he told her what to do and what books she needed to study she started getting all teary eyed. That's when I knew she was bs because her own father is in the same trade as my DH so why couldn't she ask him. Other shit followed to the point I had to ban the bitch into my home and yard, then I had to ban her name being brought up in my home over her " Over shadowing me" and every thing I would do. I am now that evil step mother in everyone's eyes now. The MIL and FIL says I have hang ups, all his friends. Maybe some of my own. There were feelings I had that I couldn't quite get the correct words to express my feelings. My husband that was suppose to love and cherish me made me sick inside. I have gained weight and depressed because I tried and tried out of guilt I had over feelings of hate towards these mini ex wife's trainings being mini wife. The one kid isn't even his which is what makese snap. I finally layed down the law, In which I thought I did. For a week he has been kissing my ass being a loving and caring husband. Tomorrow he is suppose to get his bio daughter. I told him last night I didn't want the other one coming ( the drama shit stirring teenager that's BM best friend.) the fight started again over this. I asked why. Why would BM throw up after we married about him adopting her. He said he knew what she was up too. He even asked her why would she ask now after she left him and remarried then that man let the kid down. He said she is only a teenager. The truth is he doesn't want BM to take him to court and drag out non sense over the younger child that is his. That is 2 grand he doesn't have over bullshit. He does work very hard for ever penny and he tries to make me happy. I then asked about her calling him daddy all of a sudden. He said he corrected her an told her not to call him father that he will be mentor dad. I have got to pull my self together if I want this marriage and put up with the bull shit I hate . Will she grow out of this teenaged smart ass shit? What can I do to hide these feelings of disgust? It disgusts me to the point of no return. I have to put up with BM stray kid. Do you see how that sounds? I sound like a evil bitch that I dont want t be. Feeling stuck and lost. Meanwhile, I will keep looking for a job and hope he will help pay this debt from these kids and just living to make everyone happy.