Lately things have been a little stale between DH and I. I haven't been interested in sex as much. I feel kind of bad about it, however am I supposed to get turned on when he just puts a hand on a certain area of my body and does the same thing over and over again? Sorry I'm trying to be vague, lol, but where's the passion in that? Am I supposed to just jump up in excitement because he's making me feel soooooooo um, not good at all.

Last night we were going out just him and I to a winery to listen to the live music and just drink wine. All we do all the time is watch tv when not working. I'd like to get out and enjoy life. Well, since our friends backed out and his parents wouldn't come he was kind of a grump about going. I'm like "why do you have to ruin the night before we even get there?" So we are there and I'm trying to make small talk and it's a little hard because he's not much of a talker but we talked about work a bit and laughed and had fun some and tons of kids were dancing on the dance floor and we were laughing at that/talking etc. However I watched this couple dancing like crazy with their daughter, just getting down! Having a blast. My DH would never do anything to look like an idiot and certainly wouldn't dance with me unless it was a slow dance in the right setting. I couldn't help but stare at that family and smile, a little bit jealous honestly that DH wasn't a little bit more full of life and fun.

We get along, joke, love each other, but sometimes I feel like he doesn't care to get the same things from life as I do. I knew who he was when I married him last year, we've been together 5 years though, it seems that he's changed since we got married.

I guess I should bring this up to my counselor on Tuesday... Ugh I am scared to confront DH about this, I'm just hoping the feeling goes away. Sure there's been problems with the blended side of things, but as they have improved now I'm feeling these feelings.