SD11-soon to be 12--has been with us full time for 6 out of 11 yrs of her entire life. If my math is correct, that means she has been in our house fulltime for more years than the time she spent with BM fulltime! BM had her the first 5 yrs of SD's life then handed her over to us full time. BM has only seen/talked to SD 2-3 times since.

For all intents and purposes, SD is like my full time child. I do absolutely everything for her that a regular BM would do. Cook, clean, wash, teach, help with homework, get school supplies, field trip needs, friends' birthday present....you get the idea. SD even introduces me as her "mom" to her friends & teachers.

Well, SD has YET to act like a full time "daughter" to me even though I have been a full time "mom" to her for more than half her damn life.

SD has had a habit of hiding in her room FOR THE PAST 6 YEARS and refuses STILL to interact with me. What-the-fk-ever. I had to learn to disengage. But when I'm worried every night about what she is to eat for dinner, but she won't even give me the time of day, I can't help but feel completely used!

Tonight, DH has the flu. Nice Friday. DH has been in bed all evening sleeping, while I'm out here cooking dinner for me, BD, SD, and hopefully DH. Instead of coming out of her room to say even one word, SD decides to go even further into hibernation. I walked past her room...she sees me and closes the door...then turns off the light....at 8:00. This is the kid who never turns off her light to go to sleep until midnight, on school nights. And it's Friday. But tonight, on a Friday, she decides to sulk and shut me and BD out even further by sending a clear message that she wants to stay as far away from us as possible.

This is hard for me to explain to BD4, that her "so-called sister" just shuts her out of her life completely. SD regularly shuts BD out and BD cries from the rejection. So now, poor little spoiled SD. All upset that daddy has the flu so there is no one here tonight to Kiss ass to.

I made dinner. But, I'm not going to knock on SD's door to cater and coddle a kid who clearly wants nothing to do with me after 6 years even though I've been there for her every need more than half her life! If she's hungry, I'm sure she will come asking because it's always all about HER.