Bm has been telling my SS's for years thet when they turn 12 they can come live with her(they don't need a babysitter then) One SS 14 has already gone to her house and what a relief it has been on both Dh and myself. Tommorrow ss11 turns 12 and now I don't think, after months, and years of telling us that he is going to his Mothers, I don't think he is going to go!!! I'm sorry but I really want him to go!! There are 2 reasons, one I need such a break from his horrible attitude, some of which I know is just being a typical teenager the rest is just him having a bad attitude and treating me and my other children like crap, he feels that he is better than anyone else in this house and that the rules here shouldn't apply to him!! the other reason is I feel he will treat Dh and I better once he realizes what a B*@$H i=his mother really is!!
I don't want them here and I do want them here!!??
I know that our house is a better home for them, and It will make them better people, and I know that after awhile they will treat me better and I will take the place of BM in the future(she is selfish and not all that interested in her boys)
I also don't want them here because of the strees that they put Dh and I through and the bad behaviour they teach my other children!!

Also I think I might be pregnant again, this is not good timing!! We just started our own business and are working 16 hour days, fortunately we can bring our children with us to work and spend time with them and teach them important things!!
This baby would be loved and charished as much as all of my other children, but I just had a baby who turned 7 months yesterday, and stood up all by himself,got excited and then promptly fell!! I just feel overworked and over stressed and pitying myself a bit too!!!
Right now I just wish SS11 would go with BM just for abreak for myself and DH, and I think that having a break from the boys would be good for DH too, then he may have a little peace, like he did when ss14 moved with BM, he might realize what chaos they have caused over the years when he no longer has to live with the chaos that has become normal to him!! Thanks for listening, I just really needed to get this off my chest, I just really hope that ss11 goes to his mothers for at least 6 months of peace for Dh and I!!!!