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Somtimes I just want to Kick her A$$, but trying to be a better person!

shajg's picture

Hello everyone, I'm new to this site but glad I have a place to vent. The event below is nothing in the whole scheme of things but sometimes I just can't take one more little thing from this BM. To give you alittel background. My husband and I have been married for 9 years, i have a SD15 and two children together 2 & 6. We were all great for the first couple years. I was even the main one who talked to the BM since my DH and her couldn't have a civil conversation. Basically it all went down hill when she got into the tween years. I've been pregnate 4 times and my first son was stillborn but no matter what my SD has mad every should be happy occasion a nightmare for me. I almost felt like she was happy my baby died since she was he only child at the time. Now keep in mind, the Ex has 4 girls all together including my SD. Every pregnancy since then, miscarriage and very premie son my SD and the BM has made it horrible. Especially when we found out we were having a girl, All hell broke loose. It pretty much made me upset since me having a girl. Taking away from the SD was a terrible thing. Then everything changed with the BM one day when i was big and pregnate and my SD was 11 she screamed in my face in front of everyone at a family gathering. So i grabbed her arm and said listen her missy you are not going to treat and talk to me this way. Well. she called her mom and claimed she had a bruise on her arm. For the next 6 months my SD and her BM had nothing to do with us. My SD actually hung up on her dad when called and said my baby girl was born and healthy. It was horrible having X-Mas without her and all because of me. I seriously considered leaving the marriage and mess because i couldn't take it anymore even though my DH and I have a great marraige and family. Well fast forward a couple years, things are actually civil with my SD but I have not talk to BM since then. It's a mess! I love my SD dearly and she loves on me all of the time but i will always have this hate for her also. When she hugs on my baby girl i just want to say, yeah now you want somethig to do with her. For a while she said she doesn't want to have anything to do with that baby,is how she said it. It hurt me and my husband so bad. Well, now that you have the background the little comment i found below on facebooks seems like nothing. It just keeps adding up, ya know. I just want that negativity and drama out of my life and i don't know how to not stress over it? It's sad but sometimes I wish he never had a daugther and we could live happily ever after, IS that the worst thing to say ever?

O.K., so I accidentally logged in under my husbands name on Facebook and I noticed the Ex is his friend now! He told me other things about Facebook that day but he forgot to mention the Ex! I was thinking, is this a good thing or bad thing? Now I can see all the Sh** she is saying about us but why would she want him as a friend anyway, they barely can have a conversation with one another without hanging up on each other. Then I thought why would he not approve her, that would make it seem like he has a controlling/jealous wife. Well, I spent a while yesterday night going through all of her old post to see what she says. Not too much except for needing or drinking a daiquiri every post but I did come across a post from Oct 18th that said something like “ I need to get out of this car and scream and I’m hungry” then her stupida$$ ignorant loser friend makes a comment “ you should have picked me up and I would have gotten out and kicked her a$$” so then someone put “ don’t’ listen to her she’ll just get you in trouble” Then her friend says “ Hell no Bit****, some woman who ain’t her mom is going to trying and raise her, she has her own mother and that mother will Fu**you up, how you like those apples Bi***” The Ex goes on to say all her friends love her and thanks for the back up. WHAT THE FU** IS THAT ALL ABOUT? I’m trying to convince myself it wasn’t about me but this post was put on a Sunday she picked up SD15, even though I wasn’t even at the house when she came to get her. I don’t know who her friend thinks she is !
SO now I’m thinking maybe it’s not a good idea to look at her post because it’s just going to piss me off so much I’m going to Fu***ing explode! I can’t wait until SD15 is 18 and I don’t have to deal with the EX anymore. I know DH probably don’t even look at her site and was just like “Whatever” when he approved her. I guess I will see now if she says anything since she know’s my husband is a friend. If she intentionally puts something bad about me or DH then she is just trying to start stuff. So what you think about all of this? It sounds like they act like a jealous losers with no life! When I was in my 20’s I would’ve been already at her house, saying “ Bring it on Bi***!” then I’m trying to decide if I should be pissed at my husband. Stupid a$$ man, having a baby with some Crazy, ignorant, Loser Bit**!! Will this stuff EVER END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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stepmasochist's picture

Don't go there anymore. She sounds like an idiot with idiot friends. Don't waste your energy on this woman. If your marriage and home life are fine, don't let her get your goat by going and looking for things. She has nothing to do with your happiness. Let DH deal with her and do your best to forget she even exists. If she has that much dislike for you it's obviously eating her alive with misery. Don't make yourself miserable by concerning yourself with her bullshit. Love yourself and love your life.

shajg's picture

Thank you, that's good advice but it is hard to know she is talking about me like that with people. No matter what we will see each other at games and other functions for SD, I just wish she could be normal and realize even my SD see all of her post. I guess it will only get worse as she gets more and more into the teen years. Thanks again

"Trying my best to be the best Stepmom ever but it's killing me!"

Madilyn's picture

I agree with stepmasochist, no matter how hard you try, it's never good enough. I've been in the same position, DH and BM don't get along. DH can not even ask a "simple question" pertaining to the children without BM going off on him! Like your situation, everything was ok in the beginning, now BM avoids communication with DH and I all together! We have tried SO HARD but nothing seems to be good enough! DH and I are now taking the advice everyone has given all along, BM is the one with issues!!!! She's the only one who can change that! Don't let BM get to you, it's not worth it...

stepmom2one's picture

I doubt it will ever stop, this is how it is to be a Sparent--crappy but true. My SD10 is very sweet to me and I think we have a great relationship--then when I am gone at work or she is at her BMs she stabbs me in the back. The next time I see her she acts like nothing happened, like she never lied about me. I have learned to let it all go.

Frankly, I don't care what she says about me anymore, I do my best. I make sure that things at my home are happy and my boys and SD are doing well. Thats all I can do.

I won't check the facebook again either (your Hs). It will just upset you, you can't control what these people are going to say. I am sure BM has said some nasty things about me to friends too since everytime my SD sees one in a store/introduces me they just glare. No hi or anything. But I don't care, they do not know me or my family--

This is just how I deal with it. It may not work for you, idk, you'll find your way.