Hello all. Now that my school semester is over I finally have time to post. I have only posted once before but to recap I live with my SO, his 2 sons 8 and 12, and our daughter who is 2. We have lived together 1.5 years. I mostly live in one room to stay away from it all. BM doesn't really spend much time with the boys at her house because her hubby doesn't like them. SHe will only get them 2 weekdays, and since I have only weekends off, I NEVER get a break from them.

This past week was especially annoying because SO had to travel for work and he was gone for four days. Of COURSE BM couldn't take them because her husband didn't want to "help" my SO. I had fun with that, sent her and email regarding how things work, ie, they are HER kids legally when SO isn't around, there fore the one he wasn't "helping" was her, and what kind of relationship did THEY have if it was all like that?

The older kid was awful the entire time. He clogged a drain, lied about schoolwork,after he lied about doing his homework for at least 6 months in 2 classes, was rude, and annoying. He is autistic, but this is rare for him. Of course neither parent told me the younger kid needed a special packed lunch for a field trip, I was told by the kid 10 minutes before he left for school the day of the trip. Neither parent left any decent clothes, so older kid wore high waters and too tight shorts (think male prostitute) all week. Mom did bring pants over one day, but one pair was ripped and another pair was too small. I was left with all of $40 for any expenses that might come up, and NO ONE THANKED ME. Of course, this week he is going away again and no one will broach the subject of child care, so I know I am on the hook again... BM never has to do anything. SO had been unemployed for a stretch before this job, so he gets all stressed when something comes up threatening work, so i HAVE to comply, plus I am looked at as awful and "hating his children" if I don't.

Yeah, I know that I am with a guy that has kids, and that makes it inevitable that I have to do this crap, but they just EXPECT it. I guess I set the precedent, but they are so inconsiderate. They are also very inattentive parents when it comes to clothes, school, manners, etc. I want to pin big signs on them that say "NOT MY KIDS" when we are in public. I try to be as kind to them as I can,since they are my daughter's brothers, but they really annoy me and gross me out most of the time.

I NEVER get any quality alone time with my daughter either. They are always there, in our faces. If I want to take my daughter someplace and they are home, I can't really because they will want to come and if I say no I am a huge bitch. I would love to move out, solely to get away from being held responsible for stepkids allllllll the time, but the job market here is bad, and I only work part time, though I am applying like crazy.

And I will lay the blame on myself. I should have stood up for myself. I set the precedent last week by going along with it for the sake of not rocking the boat. And yeah, being with a guy with kids, I should expect to pitch in, but I am sick of it!!

ESPECIALLY since my SO didn't even thank me, aknowlege Mother's day, etc. In fact as I write this he is out to coffee with his friend, and BM is about to drop the kids off, leaving me as the FREE BABYSITTER again, for at least 2 hours today.

FML!!!!!