I'm not sure what it is or really where to even begin, my fiance has a daughter whose 8 years old and a son who is 7 , we also have a one year old together and I'm 31 weeks pregnant with our second.....ugh well to start with iv always loved kids....until I had to live with two that aren't mine. It started out ok but has progressively gotten much much worse, to the point I can't stand being around them at all especially SD. I'm not sure if its me being a terrible person or the fact that their mother is a lowlife and sees them when its convenient for her, which is once every few months our so unless we ask for her to watch them and even then its not always a yes. My fiance is working so hard to keep our bills and rent up and that leaves me with the kids I used to look forward to weekends now I dread them bc that leaves me with at least one of the kids ever weekend(DH mother will take one occasionally)I feel like a baby sitter and I hate my job...SD doesn't listen for shit I repeat and repeat and repeat and she just ignores me thinks she can get away with anything and I like a clean house and she is such a slob SS is angry all the time gee listens a little better but I'm just afraid these kids bad habits are going to rub off on my baby girls and I can't stand the thought of that.just tonight his daughter was eating dinner (they are both slobs when it comes to eating but again more so his daughter) she gets ketchup on her hands and wipes it underneath the friggin table, the day before she dropped a whole plate of food on the floor, when she drinks anything its all over her face after. You tell her to pick up her area and she makes it a bigger mess somehow.....his son just can't stop moving his little ass everywhere that I just want to staple hisass to the chair gah I could go on but I'll save it for another day I suppose. So stressed and angry inside I need help!