I'm just so very very worn out! Life is happening so fast, and I am having a hard time keeping up with it all!

First, there is the drama with SD15. She found a way to get on THAT APP again, last week. :jawdrop:

SD12 had a doctors appointment on Thursday, and we had to leave before SD14 got home. So, we went through the house and hid all the electronics. SD15 is a clever one, though, because she found one.

I caught it on Friday, SD15's last day of school. SD15 walked home from school with her Cousin, and the three of us hung out together for hours. Well, I am on some medicine that makes me sleepy, so as soon as Cousin left, I nodded off. When I woke up, SD15 was in her bedroom. That was suspicious to me.

Later, Sd12 and Neighbor Girl19 asked Sd15 why she was sending them requests on Gmail. So, I snooped Sd15's account, and I found THAT APPLICATION emails in the trash. I asked Sd15 what she had used to get online, and she claimed a friend's phone. (Dtzy, if you read this, Stephen King has a sister named Katie, who is dating my SD15, apparently!)

I told SD15 that she'd be sleeping in the living room with me, until further notice. SD15 got mad, and went out to talk to her dad. Hubby came in and told me that SD15 would give up her electronic device, if she could sleep in her own room. I marched her back to her room, got the electronic, and she is sleeping on the couch!

Sd15 is not allowed to close the bathroom door, if her dad is out of the house (we're all girls). She has 20 minutes to take a shower, and 5 minutes to do ANYTHING ELSE in the bathroom. She's not allowed out of my eyesight, other then that. She is allowed 5 minutes to get her clothes out of her bedroom, but she doesn't have many of them left.

Also, Sd15 kept sneaking onto this app to talk to one particular boy. I left my phone signed into this app, until Boy messaged SD15 on there. Then I gave Boy a little bit of truth (Sd15 was talking to at least 15 boys, she had sent and recieved pics to all but him, and I needed him to quit contacting her.) Boy, was SD15 MAD!

Next, there is SD12. SD12 is a mini terrorist, and her therapist says that what she does amounts to domestic abuse!

I suffer from PTSD, and I do very very bad with loud noises. So, whenever SD12 gets in trouble she screams, and screams and screams. It is usually a two hour scream fest, until I feel like I am dying. When Sd12 does this, though, death seems like sweet release.

SD12 got into a little trouble about two weeks ago. She spent three days screaming at me. She screamed at me at home, on the bus, in the parking lot, and in the doctor's office.

I finally got into my doctor's office. SD12's screaming was literally driving me crazy. (Sd15 is very lucky that Sd12 did this BEFORE Sd15 started her bullshit, because I was heavily medicated, when the SD15 bullshit broke loose.)

That is the third reason why I am so exhausted! I take the new medicine twice a day. I get pretty sleepy when I take it.

Then, there are all of the doctor's appointments! Between me, both SDs and Neighbor Girl 19 (NG19 is a victim of fetal alcohol syndrome, and lives with us.) we had 20 appointments in the month of May. So far, we have 19 appointments for the month of June.

(There are usually 3 therapist appointments a week, and NG19 starts therapy next week. SD15 needs to see her orthodontist, a prescribing doctor, and I have to set her up with an OB/GYN soon. SD12 has a therapist, and a Case Manager she sees almost weekly. She gets into her prescribing doctor week after next. Both girls have to see our family doctor. I am in therapy, have a prescribing doctor, and have to see my family doctor just about monthly, due to my diabetes!)

Also, I am having financial worries. Not troubles - just worries. Hubby and I might loose a huge hunk of our income, soon. It might be a temporary thing, and it might be permanent.

Finally, I am exhausted because I don't sleep well at night. I think that something has broken loose inside of me. I've started crying myself AWAKE in the middle of the night! It's usually about 1 am, and I don't get back to sleep until sometime between 3 and 5. If I wait until after 1 to go to sleep, I have a very very hard time functioning the next day!

anyways, that's my little pitty party!