Everything has revolved around the skids for so long, for once I am going to be self-indulgent and post about myself as a person. I'm 32, I'm divorced from BS6 and BD5's dad, I work full time for a wholesale distributor of auto parts, I pull side jobs when I can for our customers, and I love my kids and live for my kids and that's fine. I am always busy. Constantly busy, and that's okay with me. I'm always the type of person to want to accomplish as much as possible in one day, however, it doesn't always work and I wind up with six different projects. But I'm today I'm sick of living for FDH and the skids. Just today. For once I want to take my hard earned money and do something for myself. Buy a new pair of sneakers, get a pedicure, get my hair cut fix up my broken ass car while I listen to FDH talk about after getting custody getting a brand new car, have the house fixed up a bit without feeling like I'm pulling teeth, have a night to myself of going to a movie or out with the girls and not feel like a total jerk. I want that black cloud of those issues with FDH/BM/skids to just go away for one day. I've been the strong one, financially and emotionally, I've been doing what I can to make life easier for FDH and nothing is working anymore and I'm not even in the mood to consider anything like intimacy because it's nothing but a distraction from problems and I'm not interested in being a distraction, I'm interested in being a person, not FDH's fiancee, not Biokid Mom, not that parts girl.

Okay I'll jump off the pity truck now.