Sorry that I am blogging so much but it does help just to get things out in the open. I feel so much better today. DH who is now exDH has not tried to contact me at all. He is being real hurtful to me in some things that he is doing. I keep thinking that I am better off and really am going to get mentally healthy from all of this. I know what we had was never mentally healthy. Why all that changed is beyond me. Dating was so good but as soon as the I do's were said EVERYTHING changed. It was truly like someone flipped a switch.

Ok so I have to share this with you guys.. I think I found my new job.. lol an email I got earlier today:

o All Who Care,

I'm new to this community My bf is currently going through a very high conflict divorce. He has a 3 yo daughter that I totally love. I have no kids of my own. We just had a GAL evaluation and we're waiting for the results. For the temporary orders, he only had the financial part and the custody part is pending the GAL report. We're both totally nervous yet very hopeful.

I feel stupid, but I can't figure it out! Can anyone here let me know?

Ever since I "called her out" for using GD to get what she wanted, she has poisoned her brother against DH. Not that he was ever normal, he uses passive agressive behavior to control DH, instead of overt threats like SD29, to get what he wants (usually to f--- with his dad's head).

My BS10 just allowed his mommy (ME) to know he has a girlfriend for the first time ever in his life. He is in fifth grade and she is in seventh. He is big for his age but part of me is going thats my baby and the other part of me is going, way to go! LOL.

So SS ran out in April, and BM took him. BM called in less than a month begging SO to pick up SS because she couldn't handle him. SO agreed, and BM said she had been wrong to let SS run to her to escape the rules with SO. SS stayed about 7 weeks, then ran to BM again - having prearranged it with her. SO has now detached from both of them, telling BM that since she and SS proactively went behind SO's back to plan this really bad decision (BM can't provide him with the structure he needs, not even his basic needs are guaranteed to be met with her), that BM and SS are on their own.

To say that I am tired is an understatement. I am a zombie on the break of dawn and I am unsure if I can make it!!

By now everyone knows the drama last week and the continuation of such. Me and FDH are on the brink of what...your guess is as good as mine.

He is the more laid back, not start a fight, let's wait and see, why make waves, type of guy. Though his other side, is the I am pissed you pissed me off and I am done. (yes, from 0 to 90 in 20 seconds or less)!!!

I am looking for a laptop computer for work. I currently use a Mac, but my new position has a program that only works on PC's. Any recommendations out there??

I have only posted once on this blog, but always have read this site because of the different approaches and how everyone handles their "blended families". Over the past two years, there have been ups and downs with my SS and I have weathered the storm but things have gotten progressively worse and I feel like I am alone on an island and my support is minimal. I had a family member who I turned to quite often up to this point and they were able to help me as I moved along the "teen years" journey with my SS.