I can no longer stand to watch SS9 eat. I can't stand watching him eat anything.. .even an apple. I know this is my problem... I just felt like venting about it.. because it really gets to me. Anytime food is discussed, eaten, prepared, SS gets soo excited, dances around the kitchen... my god, I can't handle it. His whole life evolves around food... my pantry, fridge, and cupboards are all locked up with deadbolts... This weekend I was making his dad a Tomato and Bacon sandwich... so of course SS wanted one... and he was so excited to have Bacon..

Yep you guessed it they didn't come! Not a peep out of them! I told dh that even if he told bm that it should be their choice bm will influence them no matter what! Then sat. night dh told me that bm probably did influence them which why I told him what I did. HUH? :?

I'll try to make a long story short. DH and BM have been divorced 5 years, DH has had primary custody the whole time. BM had EOW Fri-Mon AM. Two and a half years ago BM threatened suicide and was ordered to get therapy and some other things. She has not done those things and has been held in contempt multiple times and has gone months without any visitation, some has been supervised, location restricted, etc in this time. She has not had overnight visitation in 1 1/2 years. Currently she sees Skids 12 hours EO Saturday.

So, Friday night DH's cell phone rings. We don't typically use our cells at home because the service goes in & out. Sometimes it'll ring through & other times it won't. This time it did, & DH happened to be standing next to his phone when it rang. I knew he was in the kitchen near it but it kept on ringing. I glanced over & he just kept staring at it. I asked who it was & he stated it was the kids.

I am so furious right now! So DH & I have sone most of our Christmas shopping, except for the kids. Every year we set a budget on how much we will spend on each person we shop for and we pretty much stick to the amount we set. So since TG I have been asking DH what our budget was for the kids (ss13 included). He is our sole provider since I'm a stay at home mom so he decides what we can afford since his paycheck varies each month.

My lost post I told you about us having problems with my 2 SD well we talked to the oldest 9 and things are back on the right track for now with her our youngest 6 still having problems she doesn't want to come see us anymore she doesn't like it here. My DH has always siad he will never force them to come if they don't want to which I'm glad cause when they are here and unhappy just drags us all down.

I cant stand it anymore, they are honestly the most disgusting kids i have ever come across. They leave food and drinks and empty wrappers all over the house. They even just stuff chip packets and empty drink cartons under the bed or in the lounge cushions. They eat ALL day. i find it truly horrible that they eat constantly and they only ever eat shit food. I have taken to hiding food as to avoid another grocery shop after only 2 days of having them. SS13 is nearly 95kg. He is just gross. They never brush their teeth.

Sometimes I get so spiteful I am disgusted at how low I can go. My mother always called it "killing with kindness." It has sort of been ingrained into me since I was like 5 years old.

I want to buy the ex wife/BM a gift for Christmas from me or from me and DH ... to appear like I am a kind woman and hold no grudges, all the while doing it for some weird satisfaction that I was "able to rise above" her and her stupidity. But that is so horrible isn't it? I should do it because I like to give and feel wonderful inside when I can help someone? ICK!!! Bah humbug to any of it.

Well, the break is over. DH and I had our one day break from SD12. She went to her moms yesterday and came back home a couple of hours ago. I used to dread Sundays because I had to go back to work on Monday. Now I dread Sundays because SD comes home. She got here and I got up and came to the bedroom. I resent that we only get one day of peace and quiet!! When she is here it's all about her, what she wants, how she wants it, my husband waits on her hand and foot, cleans up after her, or just lets her leave her messes.

Does anyone have any experience filing an order of protection on behalf of minors? As many of you know, my SO is not divorced and there is no custody order yet. BM has been keeping 4 year old girl and teen boys from the father. Most recently she has been hiding her car so he cannot find her, in fact we filed missing persons reports when they were gone for 4 days. After three days of waiting at the school and trying to pick up 4 year old, he hid HIS car and waited for her at her garage.