i just dont like her
My stepdaughter came into my life when she was 14. She definitely has mommy issues, having been mostly abandoned by her birth mom at 5. I had dreams if being the mom she never had and all kinds of hope for the future with her. 3 years later, I have come to the conclusion that not only will I never be the mom she didn't have, I don't want to be. She has a nasty, black little heart and I simply do not like her, not even a little. I love her dad so very much and my 9 year old daughter loves her and frequently cries over how badly her "big sister" treats her. I have such a hard time dealing with my feelings because I honestly would have nothing to do with her if she were not my love's child. He knows she's a bad person too but it's still his kid. He loves her no matter what. I wish I could.I feel so fake because I never get to react as I want to, I don't want to screw up my relationship with her dad. I'm wondering how any if you deal with these feelings.