I Hate Hating My Step Daughter
I cant believe that others feel my stress and frustration! I would NEVER go out in person and reveal how much I hate my step daughter. There's just no way to justify it because it's wrong. I just cant help the way I feel and having teenage stepchildren is more difficult because THEY are at and age now where they CAN be held accountable for the sharp knives they stab you in the back with. Their words hurt. What I am struggling with now is how my SD will go out to all of her friends and their parents and discuss how terrible I am. I know this because some of them have had the balls to actually confront me. I have given EVERYTHING to her. I have worked so hard to make our relationship good. But she still hates me and it makes me resent her. I actually have 2 kids of my own and 2 stepchildren and we all live together, but Im focusing on SD right now.
My husband is afraid of her. Not physically, but emotionally. He's afraid that if he puts his foot down he will lose her. I personally dont know what that feels like but the bottom line is her safety and he needs to stop being so selfish. She has an intense relationship with a boy and truly has the propensity to choose boys over her school work, family life and anything else you can imagine. This stems from her mother. She has abandoned her children in an attempt to have a man. And she did this twice to them which is why they live with us. And now my SD is the same way. I worry about her as a human being. I also know that if she gets pregnant, I will be the one raising the baby. Im resentful because no one (except me) wants to run the risk of getting her upset so they let her have her way. She will be leaving for college this summer and I cant wait. I have never been so emotionally stressed out before in my life. This girl knows exactly how to devestate a person. She has perfected it.