hi, so it's so exhausting lately since SD13 decided that she is going to call the shots and decide when she is and isn't going to live at our house. also, DH admitted to looking over my shoulder and reading my entries here, which were referred to a bunch of toxic people spewing negative bs. i'm like ok buddy. that is another story, but anyway, SD is still obnoxious as ever when she comes here. I have been doing audio recordings and keeping documentation of every negative behavioral issue. she bit my son and picks at my toddler. even my therapist who does not know what living in a blended family is like is having trouble getting on board with my disengagement. i have taken all the advice here and being polite to SD regardless of how many rude, hurtful comments she makes. i figure if that's the worst i have to deal with from here on out, it's manageable. however, she tells me son that she doesn't like me as a person and that's why she can't live with us anymore. it's all for attention. DH went to one counseling session online together with SD while she was at her BM's house. so now he thinks he has it all figured out and he even has sympathy for the kid.
i feel bitter.
i feel resentful.
i feel like this will never let up and it will define our household and lives for some indefinite, miserable amount of time.
i don't know what i hope to find on this site but it's been excellent support and people sharing their experiences so i'll just keep going with that. thank you for anything you have to offer. this is making me look at DH in a totally different light since he's had the nerve to say that i'm at fault for being rude to SD and pushing her away. i don't know what to do anymore except keep with the audio/notes and self-care. thanks again and i hope the other steps out there are finding some kind of peace because i just don't have it. i have found some by having more of a plan but every time her name gets brought up by son or DH i just want to throw up.