At a New Place in Disengagment Process
It has taken until now to process that I am progressing in disengaging from entitled, narcissist, princess, adult SD. I went through feeling guilty, bewindered, rejected, angry, frustrated...--a load of negative emotion. SD's Christmas communication is what moved me on to fully dinengaging. DH is fully on board. He is disengaging too. It is still a huge disappointment, but there is nothing we can do to have any kind of relationship with SD. Mentally, I feel differently about her. The obsession is concluded with overwhelming evidence that she is not worth our effort. My new year's goals are about our lives and working on our health and well-being. I start with a Zoom virtual trainer today. I am out of shape and weak. I'm scared and anxious about it, but also making firm plans to be well and pursue a more meaningful life for myself and DH this year. I am in counseling, and trying to clean up my diet and bad habit of snacking at night. Today, I can actively switch the focus from a bad/non-existent relationship with SD to a realistic priority. Now that we sold our property and downsized, there is money for one year to get ourselves put back together after a 15 years of trying and failing to have a healthy relationship with SD. My resolution is "let go and get well."